things are going well!

I'm pretty happy right now. Wanna know why?

1) I got a job! I'm gonna start working at Knotty Toys in Granville Island on Monday. It's a small toy store in the Kids Only Market, and it's absolutely adorable! They sell wooden toys and things like that, and it's the cutest tinyest little store. I love it! The manager/owner also totally loved me because of Lush and volunteering at the Children's Festival for the past 5 years. Woo!
It's also not that hard for me to get there, cause I can just take the 84 or walk from my house. There's also the downtown option too. How exciting!

2) I'm probably going to start taking tennis lessons again with my old coach, Gord Hauka. He's the best coach I've ever had, and one of the nicest people I've ever met. It's gonna be super fun! All I need now is a new partner, because Ella's moving to Montreal. Any takers?

3) I'm looking into moving out! And it might happen - "how" is going to be my little secret for the time being.

4) Simon's home! It was so unexpectedly, too! He called me on my birthday and said he'd be back probably sometime in mid-September, and then two days ago he called me and said he was in the city! It was one of the most pleasant surprises in a long time.

There's more too, but right now I'm getting so giddy I can hardly type, so I'll end it here. Ahhhhh yay!

Big Brother!

BOOM BITCH, GONE!

Probably one of the happiest "evictions" this season was Chima's. She spent a good two days after Jesse was evicted crying with Lydia and Natalie, and it was just getting pathetic. Honestly, Jesse wasn't even a good competitor. The only reason anyone liked having him in the house was because he'd flirt with all the other girls, and fuck Lydia (omg I knowwww!)

http://www.onlinebigbrother.com/2009/07/big-brother-11-spoilers-lydia-jessie-have-sex-if-you-blink-you-might-miss-it-two-pump-chump/

So ridiculous.

Anyway, Chima wasn't technically evicted from the house - she wouldn't put her microphone on, and eventually after having a series of hissy fits, she threw it into the hot tub and the Executive Producer, Allison Grodner brought her into the Diary Room and told her to go home. And that was that.

Unfortunately though, because Chima was up for eviction, Michelle's rule as HOH was overthrown, and another HOH competition had to be held. But omgomgomgomgomg it ended so perfectly! JORDAN WON HOH! And in the cutest way possible, too. The final two competitors were Jeff and Jordan, and Jeff let her win it because he knew how badly she wanted it. It was the most adorable thing - the competition was mini golf, and he purposely flung his ball wayyyy away from the hole. So cute. They're my fave couple for life.

Obviously Jordan put Natalie and Lydia up for eviction, but I don't think it's going to end up the way either of them think...Lydia's the pawn, because none of the Good's are prepared to send her home so quickly to be with Jesse. However Natalie's actually a pretty good competitor, and would make the game a lot more difficult if she stuck around. So, PEACE.

Evictions are Thursday, and I'm hyped.

The only issue is what will happen when Natalie and Lydia are gone...The alliance's in the house won't be able to exist, and they'll have to kick friends out, which'll be tricky. We'll see how this goes.

my life right now.

I don't like you but I love you
Seems that I'm always thinking of you
Oh, you treat me badly, I love you madly
You really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)
Said you really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)

I don't want you but I need you
Don't want to kiss you but I need to
Oh, you do me wrong, now
My love is strong, now
You really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)
Said you really got a hold on me(
You really got a hold on me)

I love you and all I want you to do is just
Hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me
I want to leave you, don't want to stay here
I don't want to spend another day here
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you do me wrong, now
My love is strong, now
You really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)
I said you really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)

I love you and all I want you to do is just
Hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me


You really got a hold on me - She and Him
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTAjLwWNITg

Big Brother!

Ooooooh man. What an exciting episode!
With Jesse gone, the house has been divided into two groups: Good and Bad. The Good group consists of Russell, Jordan, Jeff and Michelle, and the Bad are Chima, Lydia and Natalie. Kevin doesn't quite fit anywhere, because he's playing both sides. He did have an alliance with the Bad group, but he also wanted Jesse out of the house - so he's very happy with Jeff right now. He doesn't want them to know how he feels, because he knows he's in a weak spot and could be outed really easily.
Anyway, Michelle won HOH, which was confusing for everyone because no one could really tell (at first) who she cared about and who she didn't. After siding with the Good's, her place in the house was cemented, and the other 3 girls were scared.
She ended up putting Natalie and Chima up for eviction, saying that Chima was too intense of a competitor and she wouldn't be able to beat her in the final two - Natalie was the pawn. So Chima's pisssedddddddddddd! Whatever though, rumour has it that Chima got kicked off the show sometime in the past couple of days, but it hasn't been aired yet. Apparently it was because she got super angry and wouldn't participate in competitions & threw her mic into the hot tub twice. Dumb bitch, she deserved it.

Also!

the power couple is still powering on!

Russell and Jordan were talking on the patio, and he asked her how she really felt about Jeff. She replied that she liked him, and would consider him as a boyfriend if he lived in the same town as her, even though she's only 22 and he's 31. Russell immediately told Jeff (right infront of Jordan, so it wasn't rude or mean or anything), and Jeff blushed and....asked Jordan to marry him! Now, it's only a cute thing and all, and I know that, but still - it's super cute! Then they had a long conversation about the type of engagement ring she'd want. In the diary room Jeff even said that he thought Jordan would make a good wife and mother, because of her southern charm. Awwwwww.

Have some more photos from Chima's HOH album!

cute cute cute!

a family photo....minus one!
ohh this hate for Russell is just getting ridiculous.
but look at where Jeff's hand is on Jordan's thigh!

Lydia has the dumbest tattoo's i've ever seen.
gross

Ch-ch-ch-ch-CHIMA PETS

happy to see you go!

she looks like the cover of a really bad R&B cd or ad campaign.

I'm not gonna lie

I miss him.
After yesterday, for the first real time, I'm hurting.


I didn't think it would be this hard.

Big Brother!

Long time no update about my favorite show, eh? Well don't worry! I'm back in full force!

So guess what finally happened today? This did ladies and gents!:

hooray!

Jesse was dumb and annoying and much too much of a schemer for me, so I'm very happy to see him go. The funny thing though was how he ended up going...

So k, Shima was the HOH this week, and she put Russell and Lydia up for eviction.

It was obvious that Russell would go up, because he and Shima had been fighting all week, and their alliance fell to pieces. Jesse and Natalie were on Shima's side, and they wanted him out, so her choice was the most strategic for her alliance.

Lydia on the other hand, must've been a pawn. Shima's never shown anything against her, and because of her blatant hate for Russell, she knew she was pretty much in the clear.

I'm not entirely sure how I feel about Lydia...She's overly tattoed, loud, and kind of obnoxious even though it's obvious that she has self esteem issues. But whatever, honestly, she didn't do anything too mean to anyone, and for that, I have to respect her.

Kevin had the POV, but chose not to use it to save either of the two nominees - which was totally uncalled for because he and Lydia had been best friends/allies in the house ever since the first episode when they got put in the Off Beats clique together. DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA. But Lydia didn't seem that mad at him for it, because she knew she wouldn't be the one going home.

So anyway, the reason for the toss up was that Jeff had the Coup D'Etat, which meant that he could put whoever he wanted up on the block - and he did! He and Jordan have been against Jesse and Natalie for the entire game, and they've been especially wierd to them all week since J+N tried to suck up to them.

So ha ha ha ha ha ha! Serves them right. The dynamic two-some was put up, which shook the house up in the most dramatic way imaginable. The final vote ended up being 2 for Natalie and 3 for Jesse, which was the reason why he got sent home. Ooooooh what a happy episode! The house is going to shift now!

Also, Michelle just won HOH, which means a boy will defs be up on the block this week!

my sentiments lately

I'm not gonna lie, I've felt totally abandonned over the past week or so. My birthday was two days ago, and only one person made any effort to see me - I had some phone calls, but nothing that really left an impact. One group of people actually phoned me at 8:30 or something and were all hanging out, but chose not to ask me to go out with them because my ex-boyfriend would be showing up, and they couldn't tell him to fuck off for one night. I ended up going home that night and passing out on my couch, and then Marija came over after work and woke me up with two bottles of wine.

I know that I've fucked up lately, and I have done some things to hurt people - no wait, ONE PERSON. I hurt one person. But that is no reason for everyone to involve themselves in my shit. I know who's been stabbing me in the back, and finding out wasn't difficult. Some people have even had the nerve to ask me to hang out shortly after I've found out they were talking about me. At this point, I don't really care if I end up with no friends, because if I have a bunch like this, there's really no point. I'd rather be alone and happy than with a group of two-faced people. I'm done with drama. I've accepted my faults and apologized for my wrongs. I'm ready to grow up, and whoever's interested should do the same and not be afraid of it. Anyone who wants the truth can come to me to get it, because I don't have anything to hide anymore - don't go making shit up and making it seem like I'm some kind of terrible person, because I'm not.

Good fucking riddance.

Guess who's back!

I'm hooooooome!

After a week of debautchery, i'm finally back and my liver hurts like hell. We were all pretty much drunk for 6 days straight - and I mean hammered. It was ridiculous, but awesome. I'm pretty hyped though, because I have a sweet tan (including a lovely sunglasses and band-aid tan!), and my nose is peeling = I won't have acne for a very long time. Holla!

The trip was amazing though. I was the only girl for most of it, which I initially thought would be wierd/awkward/a rape sesh, but it was actually really cool. I kinda feel like I've lost all of my femininity though, after sitting through male versions of sex stories, in dept conversations about bodily functions, etc etc. I feel pretty...enlightened now though. It's definetely interesting to see how guys interpret situations as opposed to girls. Some crazy shenanigans went down, but I'll never tell - I'm taking 'em to the grave.

Honestly though, being home feels so surreal. Especially seeing as it's RAINING outside right now (we only had one night of rain, but none of us really remember it) and I'm cold. Also, indoor plumbing is odd and so is my huge wardrobe that I'd completely forgotten about until I looked in my closet last night. It's amazing how little you can survive with for an extended period of time.

(I'm also not gonna lie..I missed 3 episodes of Big Brother. Not happy about that one little bit)

I'm also so sorry for any spelling mishaps that occured in this post/any others that are to come - my brain is fried and I hardly know how to speak anymore, let alone type/write things down.