This is my life as of lately. (I've copied and pasted it from a conversation I had with Ruby, because I refuse to type it all out again/make it look pretty)
"this guy marc stokes (un-1) was having a show on wednesday, and ive known him for years and years because hes friends with britt and tyler (ive done mushrooms with him and stuff), and tehy wanted me to come. the last time i saw marc was with marija simon and amir, so i figrued i'd ask amir to come with me because he'd already heard him and liked his shit. (lol he rapped about how i was a redhead who was smokign weed, it was dope. i fell in love)
so i convinced amir that i'd pay for his drinks if he came with me, cause i really needed a wing man. i was sooooo gonna try to like, get marc in my pants because hes sooooooo cute and talented and cool and i've been so down for so long
so amir and i went to britt's, and she and marc were chilllin there, so we all hung out for a bit then this girl named melissa showed up, then tye and this otehr guy mike got back to the apartment, and we all hung out and blazed and drank and stuff
amir was sitting beside marc, and they were talking. at one point i mostly read his lips/heard him ask amir "does she have a boyfriend" and looked up at me. and i got all hella stoked cause amir waslike "naw man". anyway, i started talking to melissa abot perfume, and the way that memory is linked to scent and how i think scent is the most important sense - basically my whole girly ridiculous lush rant, and i offered to take her to find something she liked sometime.
so anyway, we went to da clubbbb and bought a bunch of drinks, and i ended up pretty drunk. i started talking to mike about photography because he had a huge camera with him and shit, and we ended up having a long conversation about how his girlfriend of 2 years just out of the blue broke up with him when they were about to move in together, and he was super sad about it. he was holding up pretty well though, like, i wouldntve noticed that he had gotten dumped or something terrible had just happened just by looking at him
okay, so i went to buy amir and i more drinks, and realized i would be a huge douche if i just spent like, 10 minutes telling this guy how sorry i feel for him,and then coming back with drinks for everyone else i was sitting with (it was just the 3 of us) and not him. so i bought him a beer. watched the show, then amir and i realized it was almost 2 and we both had to be at work at 10 the next day, so we left.
i was suuuper rainy, and we were in gastown, and i was in ridiculously high heels, so amir grabbed my hand to insure that i didnt royally bail. we walked all the way to my house and talked and stuff. then when we got to my doorway, i stuck my hand into my bag to look for my keys, and he grabbed me by the back of the head, and like, pushed his face into my face, and kissed me. and i, being terribly sexually frustrated and fucking DYING HERE, responded in teh natural way when someone kisses you, and i kissed him back. then i realized that i was, in fact, kissing amir, and just as i was about to pull away, he like, pushed off of me and pretty much ran away and was like "k see you tomorrow!"
um, yeah
so i just stood there, a bit dumbfounded
then smoked like, 3 cigarettes in the rain.
and then the next morning we were on the same bus to work. so we had to sit together, and we were totally normal to each other and acted like nothing had happened
and he suggested that we get off a stop early and walk the long way to work, so i assumed he'd like, explain himself or something then, but he didn't
so we worked beside each other all day, and i had already told christiana (his
coworker and one of my new bitches =) ) what had happened, so we were texting about it all day. then she and i took our breaks together, and we went and ast and ate and talked about it, and she was like "well, i asked him if he liked you, and he was just like "maybe i do, maybe i don't. why does it matter?" " and then she asked "well did it mean anythin then?" and he said "maybe it did, maybe it didnt" and was being all stupid and sly adn douchey about it. so she concluded that he obvs does still like me (which we both already knew. duh)
he was done work that day at 2, and we were done at 6, so i figured he'd do what he always does and come over and say bye to me, but no. he put his sunglasses on and headphones in and hood up and walked out the other door, completely avoiding me
BUT later on that day i went on fbook, and got this:
Mike Pegasus April 8 at 2:11pm hey Claire!
i overheard you talking to Melissa about finding your scent.. i thought about it, and realized every cologne ive gotten has been from someone else.. i'd like you to help me find my scent :)
oh and btw. u smell good :P
so now i'm going on a date type thing i think with this guy?
LOL who is a dj and stuff
and also is, uh, 27
aaaaand amir didn't talk to me at all yesterday, which is really not normal at all, and was very difficult to deal with. and today he went on about how he fucked some girl last night and has a sore back because of it
and that night that everything happened, he'd slept with someone, which he told me all about, and anotehr girl the night before. it was gross
respect like....dropiing?
possiblity to ever be attracted to....also dropping"
Prettyyyyyyyy much. This is wierd ahahhahahah. I'm not really that concerned or anything, it's just really odd and unexpected and I'm a bit confused. But whatever.
It's sunny and gorgeous outside, and I want to go and play! Aka go shopping and buy a whole bunch of new makeup and spring clothing!
