you can erase someone from your mind - getting them out of your heart is another story

One of my favorite poems. Read the full thing if you have some time to kill.
"Eloisa to Abelard"
by Alexander Pope
http://www.monadnock.net/poems/eloisa.html

"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
Labour and rest, that equal periods keep;
"Obedient slumbers that can wake and weep;"
Desires compos'd, affections ever ev'n,
Tears that delight, and sighs that waft to Heav'n.
Grace shines around her with serenest beams,
And whisp'ring angels prompt her golden dreams.
For her th' unfading rose of Eden blooms,
And wings of seraphs shed divine perfumes,
For her the Spouse prepares the bridal ring,
For her white virgins hymeneals sing,
To sounds of heav'nly harps she dies away,
And melts in visions of eternal day. "

If I could, I'd erase you.

i can't give it up for someone else's touch.

My tummy hurts because I just ate a burrito >.<

SHAMBHALA ON THE BRAIN, ALL THE TIME ALL THE TIME ALL THE TIIIIIIIME!
I can't get over how excited I am. It's ridiculous. I'M LEAVING IN 4 DAYS MAWFUCKAAAAAAA!
And then
and then
and then

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!

I seriously forsee the two most intense weeks of my life, coming up right now. I'm gonna deeeeeeeestroy myself. (oops)

Still wanting a new job, because mine is getting boring and repetitive and I don't think I can deal with Arlene anymore.
Marija and I are booking our plane tickets to Europe sometime at the end of this month (!!!)

Everything is coming together.

All I need is a boy, and I'm all set.
(hmph)

O ya!






I wish I was on the money.

sup bitches

I quite like posting photos, and even more so, I like posting photos of myself!


I am such an LG, but its great.


OMG FUCK YOU?
aka
Blinded and blazing is my life.


Before bed a couple weeks ago, before I chopped my bangs again. I really like this photo for some reason.


Night, all! (note, no makeup and shiiiiiiit)

I went on a run today. It felt sooo amazing to actually get out on a warm night and run my little balls off. Without my dog. I feel terrible, because I know he'd be beyond stoked to be outside, but he's getting too old and slow now =( My poor little senior citizen.
Then I did 50 crunches when I got home. I realized the other day that I'm starting to get these tiny stoner lovehandles, which no one but me has/would ever notice, but they bother me. And honestly, doing a bunch of crunches can't ever be bad for you, amirite? I'm going to seriously do my best to make this a more regular activity, because according to every older person I know, excercise only gets harder as you get older, and I refuse to be a fat old lady!
I'm also thinking about taking a Butts, Abs and Thighs workout class thing at Mount Pleasant starting on Mondays in August. Yay, health!

In other news, it feels weird being alone in my house. I'm never alone in my house (probably because I'm never here, but still...). It's almost lonely. Thank god for Patches.

And I leave for Calgary in 9 days! STOOOOOOOOKED BEYOND BELIEF.

"Tell Me What to Swallow" - Crystal Castles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZSE4uVtxBA
so down for this, and all Crystal Castles, all the time!

Imma go smoke some weed now!

things I love

HARRY POTTER LAND JUST OPENED! WHO WANTS TO GOOOOOOOOOO?!
Actually, I'm a bit too stoked for this.


Pretty little lingerie-clad Disney girls.


I just realized for the first time how unbelievably beautiful Brigitte Bardot is. Oh my gosh.


Super cuuuuute. I'd wear both of these dresses all the time.


This is almost my makeup counter! hahahhaa


"Is There a Ghost?" - Band of Horses
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JK716RqoUms

you could take me in fours

Watch things on VCRs with me
and talk about big love
I think we're superstars
you say you think we are the best thing

But you
you just know
you just do

Wierd heartache is the wierdest thing. What a stupid sentence, but it's trueeeeeee.

I have such terrible cramps right now. Oh myyyyy lord. Also, allergies are such a bad time. WHINE WHINE WHINE.

So, I've decided that I'm going to remodel and rework my wardrobe. I feel a bit too much like a neon LG, and thats not a good thing at all, when I already look young for my age. SO anyone wanna help me? Have any ideas? Stuff like dat? I'm so open to suggestions. (but please note, I don't want to be toooooo much of a hipster douchebag)

Also, there's a possibility I might be going to Vegas at the end of July? My sister's dance team group thing made it into the World Championships, and she's one of 7 out of 22 girls who were chosen to go down and represent them. Pretty cool! And now my Dad and Step-Mum have offered to pay for my flight down as my birthday present if I want to go! Ahhhh! I'd love to, but I still don't have a stupid stinking passport yet, because I just got my BCID. Eff eff eff. Hopefully I can get my shit together over the next month and it'll come speedilyyyyyyy.
I'm wondering where my Dad is getting all this money though....Yesterday my Mum got a cheque from Family Maintenance, giving her all of the money in child support that my Dad has owed her for me for the last....10 years almost. Hella cash. He hasn't had money for years though. Like, actually. So this was super shocking for both of us. We're thinking that he either
a) won the lottery (again)
b) gambelled and actually got a substancial amount of money this time, or
c) my Grandad died, and he got a trust.
I really....hope my Grandad didn't die. That would suck. But seriously, Dad, how do you do it?!

But at least two trips of mine this summer will be paid for now. Hollaaaaaa

shiiiiiiiit

I'm all blacked out, and stuff!



But aren't we just the cutest?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QR_qa3Ohwls
is my luv ur drug?!

GUESS WHAT, GUYS?

BIG BROTHER 12: JULY 8TH 2010



I am sooooooooo excited!
And the dates for it have changed, so I won't be such a nerm, all the time!

I am such a loser, but I don't care!


I went to Josh's farm for two days, and I've totally fried my brain. I guess I forgot there was a reason why I don't start smoking weed at 9 a.m - and thats because it just makes me eat so much food and take a million naps. But it was a fun little getaway anyways. Ole burnt his eyebrows/lashes off! It was probably one of the most terrifying and hilarious things I've ever seen in my whole life.
But seriously, I am so exhausted. I baked cookies all day today and sat around, which I have every intention of continuing to do. I love days off!