i've got fear for my own name

Phone companies/contracts are confusinggggggggggggggggg
Do I go with Bell, which is tried, tested and true, and also affordable and has what I need
or do I go with Virgin Mobile, which is tooootally strange to me, but has better long distance (so I can phone Ruby for less money), but would mean having less overall minutes and features - also not getting the exact phone that I want. Hmmm, it would also be cheaper right off the bat, because a 2 year contract is free with Virgin, but $80 with Bell.

AHHHH I DON'T KNOWWWW. And if I ask my Mum for help with this, she'll freak out at me and not want to do it at all. Goddamnit!


Also, I just found out my bank account got compromised! So now I no longer have a working bank card. YAY HOW LOVELY. And my Mum lost my birth certificate somehow, so I might not be able to get a new one. fgkjdfkghdfghdo AHHHHHHHHHHHH


I'm having a very inconvenient couple of days, my goodness.

As a side note, you should all listen to Blind Pilot, cause he's really cuuuuute =)

I AM SO FRUSTRATED AHHHH BITCH BITCH BITCH

My boss just decided today to not pay me. THANK YOU, RHONDA, HOW CONSIDERATE OF YOU. So now that my weekend is FINALLY here, and I actually have plans and reasons to need money, I have none. great. awesome. thank you so much. fjgkjdfhgkjdfhgkhdfg FUCK MY LIFE.

And Mum bailed on getting a new phone with me today, which means I have to keep using the stupid broken one I have now. She's bailed like, 3 times now. ughhhhhhhh

My chair also broke today, which is super sad cause I've had it since I was little.

Things aren't actually as bad as I'm making them seem. I can get through this weekend easily, it would just be a billion times nicer/more convenient if they would work out the way they were supposed to the first time. Like, for once, that would be nice? Goddamnittttttttttt.


So instead of thinking about things like this, I'm going to go shower, and then meet up with people, and then go to Allisons and get ridiculously drunk and see where that takes me! (it should be to good places!)

come on, skinny love

lalallala
so
Tony gave me my own toothbrush to leave at his house when I was there yesterday(!?) It was cute and funny and unexpected. Maybe he thinks I'm going to be around a lot more often? Or its an invitation to do so? Anyway, it made me giggle.
He also like, forced some of his shirts on me, which is okay because they smell nice and actually fit me because for the first time in my life I'm with someone who isn't 10 times bigger than me.
Aaaaaand I'm pretty sure I passed out on top of him because we were drunk and watching like, X-Men or something.
And when we woke up this morning at 6 because he was leaving for Nelson, he told me to stay in bed and sleep before going to work, and kissed me goodbye and was adorable.
eeee everything is cute and ridiculous right now.

but. I am still not going to get attached.



A lot of other things, however, are LAAAAAAAAME right now. Plus, I'm getting sick which I DO NOT WANT for this weekend. Ughhh.



I'm gonna go live in my bubble now.

here! my gift of adorable songs!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VUvILO8qNgE&feature=rec-LGOUT-real_rn-HM

UGH

SO. K.


I'm so frustrated with so many people right now. I'm trying not to be, because I feel like a huge spazz, but I'm not the only one who feels like this right now....

FRIENDS NEED TO STOP MIXING WITH/FUCKING/LIKING/BEING DOWN FOR OTHER FRIENDS. everyones making these fucked up switcheroos and it's REALLY not cool.
i can't even express how much this is stressing me out and pissing me off.
everyone needs to just eff off and find someone from a different circle, that no one else knows or cares about, and who can be completely new and drama free. this is just getting ridiculous.


Marija and I got in our first fight ever about this the other day. I AM SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED. I ended up breaking down in Josh's car the other day with Emma. Like, full on hysterics and almost unable to breathe and wanting to punch things. Seriously. This is not okay.


In other news. I went on a date with the old man today, and we actually had a really good time. I'd be down for him if he was 10 years younger, for sure.

lalalallalalallala i'm gonna go get stonedddd.

p.s right at this moment I wish I had a real boyfriend....OH WELL. GUESS NOT.

fuck my life.