i know what i want, and what i want's right here with you.

I don't want to go to school today, even though it's the last day.
I just want to stay home and bitch. Or mope. Or something. I'm mad for a stupid reason that isn't actually stupid. Is it too early to feel under-appreciated? Yes. It is.
I'm really scared that I'm going to end up in the place that I was in...6 months ago. And I'm going to dig myself a hole and it's going to hurt even more this time. I cannot, and will not stand for the way I'm being treated right this minute. I am not her. I will not put up with the shit that she put up with, because I am a person of value, who deserves to have some fucking attention paid to her, instead of drinking while she gets bored and goes to sleep.

Ugh.

I'm really frustrated right now, and I can't articulate it.
I want him to apologize and make me feel better, and I want this to go away.