I've started to really detest some of my friends when they're under the influence. I don't know exactly what it is, but I think it's just the fact that some of them become unmanageable so quickly, they're hard to deal with. I probably sound like a huge douchebag right now, because I'm high on a weed brownie, but I feel like I'm somehow different than some of them. I feel that I can handle myself pretty easily, and I can get things done when I have to - it's not hard for me to make a plan and follow through with it, and for some of them that's like, the hardest thing in the world to do.
I also feel like there's more judgement and criticism among people who are fucked up. It's so easy to say really terrible thing to people, and think nothing of it. Like tonight, I was complaining about how I sometimes feel put down by this one person in particular, and it's upsetting me a lot, and Josh responded by saying: "well, a lot of people do that to you, sooooo.....". It shocked me. Why is that acceptable? How is that in any way a good excuse? He didn't even realize that what he'd said could be hurtful. Then he said: "well, I don't really do it to you that much, so don't bitch at me about it."
that much still = something, and something is bad enough on it's own.
I just hate that people have a reason to be jerks.
fuck.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q4MXFOMpVIw
really down for this song right now.
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