i'd make a sea for you.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!
what a hap hap happy day! I just want everyone out there to know that I love them mucho mucho, regardless of if they're alone or coupled today.

But also, kind of a shitty night last night. I'll just copy it from facebook because I don't give enough of a fuck to type it all out all nicely.

11:51amClaire
and uh, jos and i ended our friendship

11:51amEmma
...oh.

11:51amClaire
so, it was kinda a shitty night

11:51amEmma
was it like you had a fight and now never want to see him again or did you legit talk about it and decide to stop being friends

11:51amClaire
we talked about it

11:52amEmma
so.. you just ... aren't friends

11:54amClaire
well, k, basically what happened
he was telling hannah about his tattoo, and we were all baked, so like, people are kinda blunt (lol) when they're baked

11:54amEmma
m

11:56amClaire
and we were just being like, critical in a good way of it, just making sure that he'd thought about it and stuff. (its an inside joke between him and elisa, and i personallyyyyyy see best friend tattoos as just as bad as couple tattoos, because if you were to stop being friends, you'd kick yourself and hate it. and said joke only happened in the summer = less than a year ago)

11:56amEmma
i think %100 that his tattoo is a fully lame idea
but
you know
anyway

11:57amClaire
so we told him this. and he was just like "fuck you guys for hating. you're putting me down and making me feel dumb, that so stupid". and we were like "well no man, we're just saying that you should really think about it, and know for sure that its what you want. and if you REALLY want it, you won't care if people judge you for it"
and like, i didn't tell a lot of people about mine, because i knew people would critisize it, and i didn't want that.

11:58amEmma
m

11:58amClaire
and he just continued to be really mad, even though i tried to explain to him why i was saying what i was saying. and like, maybe it was out of line, but a tattoo's on your body forever, and i think its a dumb idea, so i felt it was my need as a friend to express that

11:59amEmma
yeah

11:59amClaire
then out of the blue (we were alone in his car at this point, and hannah adn colleen were outside blazing) he was like "i don't like chilling with you anymore"

11:59amEmma
whoa

11:59amClaire
and so i was like "uhhhhh WHAT THE FUCK
and he was like "well, we just fight all the time, and it sucks." "dude, i told you this months ago....this isn't news to either of us"

12:00pmEmma
yep

12:01pmClaire
so then i was just like "okay, well, i know why i pick fights with you sometimes, and its because i call you on your shit, and keep you grounded in a sense (or try to, anyway), and i want to keep you levelheaded because i can tell when you're getting over-excited/retarded."
but also like "i don't know why you're mean to me though. i don't do anything to you, nad you're totally verbally abusive to me. and other people have noticed and talked to me about it, and its bullshit"
and he was like "i do it because its easy"
so i flipped out

12:02pmEmma
WHOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
WHOA
WHOA
that is some bullshit

12:03pmClaire
yeah
so i was like "k well, WHAT THE FUCK kind of friend is mean to his friends because he can? or because its easy?! thats bullshit and terrible and i don't want to be friends with you if you're going to be like that"
so he was all "i dunno. its just like., i dunno. like the way a kindergartner is....i just do it because i'm used to it. and i don't want to stop"

12:04pmEmma
what the fuck?

12:05pmClaire
and i just sat there in shock for like, a minute. and didn't speak and held back tears. then was like "okay, well, i don't want to be friends with someone who has the maturity of a kindergartner"
then he cut me off and was like "OMG CLAIRE. I'M SO BAKED. HOLY SHIT."
and i got out of the car. and that was the end. then he left.

12:06pmEmma
.....what the fuck?
honestly
holy jesus

12:06pmClaire
yep
so
that was the end of that
peace out like, most important person in my life.




Happy 'tines, guys!
fuck my life.

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