I've just had the most lovely Christmas!
Here's the load for the year =)
- samsara bag. its purple and gorgeous and i'm super hyped on it because it's huge.
- a hairdryer
- a set of plates, cutlery, large cooking spoons, cookie sheets, muffin/cupcaks tins, and a lemon loaf pan (i'm all set to move out!)
- a snakeskin bag from modcloth
- SUPER CUTE PACMAN NECKLACE!!!! SO HYPED ON IT
- lots of chocolate
- mango body butter from the body shop
- josie maran moisture stick from sephora (i've wanted this for soooo long!)
and the kicker
- bebe pyjamas. complete with the word, in diamonds, on the bum. ahahhaa
soooo hyped. and i'm still going to my uncle's house later, so there will be more!
Merry Christmas everyone! <3
Friday, December 25, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
hi friend! hi friend! hi friend!
Everyone is bailing on going out today and that's soooooo frustrating! I'm in the mood to go out and drink and get super fucked and be social (which, by the way, rarely ever happens), and they all want to sit at home and blaze. Ughhhhhhh
So instead I'm gonna do one of these stupid things.
Has a boy ever given you a reason not to trust them?
haha like, the majority of them? sleazyyyy
Do you think you've changed over the past year?
yes. a lot.
What's so special about what you're wearing?
iiiiiii am not wearing a shirt. just a bathrobe and undies, cause i just got out of the shower. ahaha
Ever feel like you're not good enough?
i used to. that is not the case anymore.
Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down?
ruby or sophie or lily or emma or something.
Is there someone you used to talk to everyday and now never talk?
oh god, there are actually a lot of people like that. i suck?
What are you going to do after this?
dry my hair and go out anyways!
What's standing in the way of what you want right now, if anything?
EVERYONE IS LAME
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
charlie, my bear and lumpy, the hephalump
What was the reason for your last emotional breakdown?
that thing that sucked but thankfully is hopefully over and done with now.
What's something you really NEED right now?
wiiiiiiine.
Are you scared of moving on?
i haaate doing it, and wish i never have to, but i always manage
What about change?
worst thing. i'm so bad at it.
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you?
yeah =)
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
suuuure? that might be funny
Last time you laughed really hard?
last night. oooooh my.
Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
yeah
Does the person you like, like you back?
to an extent, but i don't really like him that much either? so its like, not sad. i'm totally indifferent.
Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
i used to. i don't want to do that anymore. i'm simple now!
Ever been kissed under fireworks?
chyeah
Is there a person you talk to everyday?
jos, sophie, usually lily and hannah, and fam and stuff
Whos someone you can't live without?
the bests!
What is one thing you want to do before the school year ends?
no school suckaaaa!
Who or what sleeps with you?
when i'm home i'm sleeping with my dog, because he's a cuddle monster and he keeps me warm =D
but sometimes i sleep with other people, y'know.
Are you afraid of death/dying?
no
What’s your favorite thing to have on your bed?
lots of pillows and blankets and a cuuuuute boy!
Do you consider yourself lucky?
very much so
If you could go back in time, would you?
mmm to the summer of grade 9. that was a dope summer.
Last thing you did before bed last night?
like, died because i was so effing high. jesus.
Anything bothering you?
nooo
What's the first thing you did this morning?
woke up and fell back asleep. then i went to work! woo!
Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight?
i always do.
Ever liked someone older than you?
AHHAHAHAHAH
How's december going for you?
its coming together quite nicely, actually.
When's the next time you'll see your friends?
tonight if they all stop being TOTAL NERMANS
Is there that one boy that you'll always have feelings for no matter what?
i'll always have feelings for him, but those feelings have and will continue to change. i don't love him like i used to, if that's what this question is getting at.
Do you believe that there's good in everybody?
yes. i really, really hope so.
Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
chyeah man
In the past week have you cried?
fjgfghfk eff
Do you currently have a scar?
i have soooo many. i fuck myself up, man.
Honestly how do you feel right now?
i'm so down to get rowdy! why is no one wanting to do this with me?!
Have you met anyone new lately?
re-met? sure.
When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
to my brotha earlier. and to ruby like, an hour ago.
What are you doing for your next birthday?
get so hammered i might die.
I bet you can't wait to get out of this town?
yes and no. i just want to go away for a while, and then come back and live here for a long time.
Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night?
nope!
Is there a song that every time you hear it, you think of someone?
most of my music reminds me of someone or something.
When was the last time you went to a swimming pool?
a loooong time ago. i tend to avoid them though, so its not wierd that i haven't been in like, over a year.
Has anyone ever made fun of you for being too tall/short?
i'm super tiny, but thats okay. (i get all your old, too small clothing bitchessss!)
How would you react if your celebrity crush came to your door?
....sleep with him? is that allowed? i'm not really wearing any clothes right now, so it wouldn't be difficult.
Do you know what it's like to be truly happy?
i think so. i can pinpoint the moment so far in my life where i've been the happiest, and that in my mind is true happiness. but maybe there'll be another time where i'll be happier? (yes, there will be) and that will be the new true happiness. so, true happiness is changing and evolving and can never be one thing/event/moment forever. WOO PHILOSOPHY.
Do you prefer kisses on the nose, cheek or forehead?
cheek! but nose is super cute sometimes too. my brother is the only person allowed to kiss my on the forehead.
Have you seen someone recently you used to talk too, but don’t anymore?
a couple days ago at cafe deux. that was awk. we continued to not talk!
Guys, get your act together - LETS GO OUTTTTTTTTTT
So instead I'm gonna do one of these stupid things.
Has a boy ever given you a reason not to trust them?
haha like, the majority of them? sleazyyyy
Do you think you've changed over the past year?
yes. a lot.
What's so special about what you're wearing?
iiiiiii am not wearing a shirt. just a bathrobe and undies, cause i just got out of the shower. ahaha
Ever feel like you're not good enough?
i used to. that is not the case anymore.
Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down?
ruby or sophie or lily or emma or something.
Is there someone you used to talk to everyday and now never talk?
oh god, there are actually a lot of people like that. i suck?
What are you going to do after this?
dry my hair and go out anyways!
What's standing in the way of what you want right now, if anything?
EVERYONE IS LAME
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
charlie, my bear and lumpy, the hephalump
What was the reason for your last emotional breakdown?
that thing that sucked but thankfully is hopefully over and done with now.
What's something you really NEED right now?
wiiiiiiine.
Are you scared of moving on?
i haaate doing it, and wish i never have to, but i always manage
What about change?
worst thing. i'm so bad at it.
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you?
yeah =)
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
suuuure? that might be funny
Last time you laughed really hard?
last night. oooooh my.
Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
yeah
Does the person you like, like you back?
to an extent, but i don't really like him that much either? so its like, not sad. i'm totally indifferent.
Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
i used to. i don't want to do that anymore. i'm simple now!
Ever been kissed under fireworks?
chyeah
Is there a person you talk to everyday?
jos, sophie, usually lily and hannah, and fam and stuff
Whos someone you can't live without?
the bests!
What is one thing you want to do before the school year ends?
no school suckaaaa!
Who or what sleeps with you?
when i'm home i'm sleeping with my dog, because he's a cuddle monster and he keeps me warm =D
but sometimes i sleep with other people, y'know.
Are you afraid of death/dying?
no
What’s your favorite thing to have on your bed?
lots of pillows and blankets and a cuuuuute boy!
Do you consider yourself lucky?
very much so
If you could go back in time, would you?
mmm to the summer of grade 9. that was a dope summer.
Last thing you did before bed last night?
like, died because i was so effing high. jesus.
Anything bothering you?
nooo
What's the first thing you did this morning?
woke up and fell back asleep. then i went to work! woo!
Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight?
i always do.
Ever liked someone older than you?
AHHAHAHAHAH
How's december going for you?
its coming together quite nicely, actually.
When's the next time you'll see your friends?
tonight if they all stop being TOTAL NERMANS
Is there that one boy that you'll always have feelings for no matter what?
i'll always have feelings for him, but those feelings have and will continue to change. i don't love him like i used to, if that's what this question is getting at.
Do you believe that there's good in everybody?
yes. i really, really hope so.
Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
chyeah man
In the past week have you cried?
fjgfghfk eff
Do you currently have a scar?
i have soooo many. i fuck myself up, man.
Honestly how do you feel right now?
i'm so down to get rowdy! why is no one wanting to do this with me?!
Have you met anyone new lately?
re-met? sure.
When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
to my brotha earlier. and to ruby like, an hour ago.
What are you doing for your next birthday?
get so hammered i might die.
I bet you can't wait to get out of this town?
yes and no. i just want to go away for a while, and then come back and live here for a long time.
Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night?
nope!
Is there a song that every time you hear it, you think of someone?
most of my music reminds me of someone or something.
When was the last time you went to a swimming pool?
a loooong time ago. i tend to avoid them though, so its not wierd that i haven't been in like, over a year.
Has anyone ever made fun of you for being too tall/short?
i'm super tiny, but thats okay. (i get all your old, too small clothing bitchessss!)
How would you react if your celebrity crush came to your door?
....sleep with him? is that allowed? i'm not really wearing any clothes right now, so it wouldn't be difficult.
Do you know what it's like to be truly happy?
i think so. i can pinpoint the moment so far in my life where i've been the happiest, and that in my mind is true happiness. but maybe there'll be another time where i'll be happier? (yes, there will be) and that will be the new true happiness. so, true happiness is changing and evolving and can never be one thing/event/moment forever. WOO PHILOSOPHY.
Do you prefer kisses on the nose, cheek or forehead?
cheek! but nose is super cute sometimes too. my brother is the only person allowed to kiss my on the forehead.
Have you seen someone recently you used to talk too, but don’t anymore?
a couple days ago at cafe deux. that was awk. we continued to not talk!
Guys, get your act together - LETS GO OUTTTTTTTTTT
Monday, December 14, 2009
ahh ughhhh
The extraction of wisdom teeth is a very painful and particularily unpleasant process, that I would not wish on anyone, ever.
The worst part, aside from the fucking HUGE needle they had to stick into my gums twice, was the sound it made as they were ripping it out. It was like a crunch and a pop, and you could hear the roots tearing. Not cool man, not cool.
My mouth hurts and is somehow still frozen, and the stupid dentist wouldn't give me any T3's. (Anyone know where I can get some? I'll seriously pay big money)(i even got Connor to ask Kasey for some, and she doesn't even have any)
I'm gonna chill on the couch and watch movies for the next two days. Someone had better come and tend to me.
The worst part, aside from the fucking HUGE needle they had to stick into my gums twice, was the sound it made as they were ripping it out. It was like a crunch and a pop, and you could hear the roots tearing. Not cool man, not cool.
My mouth hurts and is somehow still frozen, and the stupid dentist wouldn't give me any T3's. (Anyone know where I can get some? I'll seriously pay big money)(i even got Connor to ask Kasey for some, and she doesn't even have any)
I'm gonna chill on the couch and watch movies for the next two days. Someone had better come and tend to me.
Friday, December 11, 2009
bad romance? yes.
I just found out something that I didn't want to know. It might not be true, but I'm incredibly disappointed in the person who has lead me to feel this way.
I kind of figured my friendship meant more than that.
I kind of figured my friendship meant more than that.
i've been homeless, i've been out on a limb
I'm...a douchebag? And I don't make any sense, but I'm frustrated.
I'm getting to the point where I'm starting to get sick of the way I'm living, and the direction some of my friendships are going in. Long story short - I feel like I have more drinking/drug buddies than real friends. This is particularily the case when it comes to Josh, who has been unable to be there for me when it comes to real situations, but is always/only wanting to hang out if we can smoke a bowl. I really needed him a couple of days ago, and he was too busy blazing and hanging out with, of all people, one of my ex-boyfriends (go figure?!).
I tried to call him on it yesterday, and he freaked out and stopped talking to me entirely.
And then today he called and asked what "you guys" are up to, even though he knew I was home alone with no plans for the evening, and said that we should all get together sometime for a blaze sesh in the next couple of days. THIS IS EXACTLY MY POINT, YOU FUCK. Friends are supposed to just be able to hang out, without just having to get baked, (right?).
I..do not know how I feel about this. I guess I just have to chill for a bit and work a bunch and just stay away. Ugh. Fuck.
And my wisdom teeth are coming out on Monday! I AM SO SCARED OH MY LORD. Eeeee at least I get T3's!
Plus I just spent a bunch of money on new clothes and makeup, so once I'm recovered I'm gonna look and feel purdyyyy.
Mmmm also, the boy sitch is about the same. I had a humiliating experience involving rum at his place the other day, but thankfully he's still talking to me after it all ahahha. And he's said that he's gonna come with me to the double feature of Edward Scissorhands and The Nightmare Before Christmas at the Rio next Friday. Soooo that's cool. Yay public appearance! And he's leaving to go back home for Christmas, which is totally okay because I won't have any time for him around then anyway!
+ he's going to come over and take care of me after I have my teeth taken out =)
I'm happy!
I'm getting to the point where I'm starting to get sick of the way I'm living, and the direction some of my friendships are going in. Long story short - I feel like I have more drinking/drug buddies than real friends. This is particularily the case when it comes to Josh, who has been unable to be there for me when it comes to real situations, but is always/only wanting to hang out if we can smoke a bowl. I really needed him a couple of days ago, and he was too busy blazing and hanging out with, of all people, one of my ex-boyfriends (go figure?!).
I tried to call him on it yesterday, and he freaked out and stopped talking to me entirely.
And then today he called and asked what "you guys" are up to, even though he knew I was home alone with no plans for the evening, and said that we should all get together sometime for a blaze sesh in the next couple of days. THIS IS EXACTLY MY POINT, YOU FUCK. Friends are supposed to just be able to hang out, without just having to get baked, (right?).
I..do not know how I feel about this. I guess I just have to chill for a bit and work a bunch and just stay away. Ugh. Fuck.
And my wisdom teeth are coming out on Monday! I AM SO SCARED OH MY LORD. Eeeee at least I get T3's!
Plus I just spent a bunch of money on new clothes and makeup, so once I'm recovered I'm gonna look and feel purdyyyy.
Mmmm also, the boy sitch is about the same. I had a humiliating experience involving rum at his place the other day, but thankfully he's still talking to me after it all ahahha. And he's said that he's gonna come with me to the double feature of Edward Scissorhands and The Nightmare Before Christmas at the Rio next Friday. Soooo that's cool. Yay public appearance! And he's leaving to go back home for Christmas, which is totally okay because I won't have any time for him around then anyway!
+ he's going to come over and take care of me after I have my teeth taken out =)
I'm happy!
Sunday, December 6, 2009
i like you a lot, lot, think you're really hot hot
Sheesh, I suck at this whole having time to be on the computer thing. I've miss blogging!
I've been working lots and making lots of money and selling lots of dollhouses. I never expected how insane our store would get. I mean, I obviously did to an extent, because it's a toy store at Christmas-time and I'm not stupid...but there's so much other stuff that I have to do that takes up sooo much time. Like special orders. Holy fuck. I've spent like, 6 hours in total over the past week on the phone with Greyhound/Fed Ex/UPS trying to get estimates on shipping for customers. It's ridiculous. But I'm still liking it because my shifts pass super quickly. Soooo win!
In other news, I guess I'm pretty happy. I've been hanging out with Sophie, Josh and Emma a lot lately. And I've seen Shayla and Hannah a fair bit too. We had a mini bitches night at Shayla's the other day, and it was super nice to all get together for the first time since like...the summer. We drank pointsettas (pinks, cranberry juice and cointreau) and I got pretty drunk and nice. Now it'd be super cool if we all had the time to do things like that more regularly!
Mmmm, here are some photos!
Sophie brought me nasal strips instead of band-aids, so we tried them out.
This was the night Josh nearly greened out....oops.
New grinder! Bought yesterday! It's so cute and paaaaank I love it.
Oh no I did not! lol guess!?
Haha, we went on a real date the other day too. It was super cute. I liiiiiiike. Shh.
Here's some music I've been diggin' lately, too!
1. "Knock You Out" - Tiesto featuring. Emily Haines
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTN-F0tG4EM
Holla for some Canadian love!
2. "The Real Slim Shady" - Eminem
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3hHPuRqJavo
"and Dr. Dre said...NOTHING YOU IDIOTS. Dr. Dre's dead, he's locked in my basement!"
3. "It Fit" - Crystal Castles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYee3k5dRBg
This song makes me want to party soooo badly.
4. "Bad Romance" - Lady Gaga
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ACm9yECwSso
Don't even think of judging me. I love lady g.
I've been working lots and making lots of money and selling lots of dollhouses. I never expected how insane our store would get. I mean, I obviously did to an extent, because it's a toy store at Christmas-time and I'm not stupid...but there's so much other stuff that I have to do that takes up sooo much time. Like special orders. Holy fuck. I've spent like, 6 hours in total over the past week on the phone with Greyhound/Fed Ex/UPS trying to get estimates on shipping for customers. It's ridiculous. But I'm still liking it because my shifts pass super quickly. Soooo win!
In other news, I guess I'm pretty happy. I've been hanging out with Sophie, Josh and Emma a lot lately. And I've seen Shayla and Hannah a fair bit too. We had a mini bitches night at Shayla's the other day, and it was super nice to all get together for the first time since like...the summer. We drank pointsettas (pinks, cranberry juice and cointreau) and I got pretty drunk and nice. Now it'd be super cool if we all had the time to do things like that more regularly!
Mmmm, here are some photos!
Sophie brought me nasal strips instead of band-aids, so we tried them out.
This was the night Josh nearly greened out....oops.
New grinder! Bought yesterday! It's so cute and paaaaank I love it.
Oh no I did not! lol guess!?
Haha, we went on a real date the other day too. It was super cute. I liiiiiiike. Shh.
Here's some music I've been diggin' lately, too!
1. "Knock You Out" - Tiesto featuring. Emily Haines
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTN-F0tG4EM
Holla for some Canadian love!
2. "The Real Slim Shady" - Eminem
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3hHPuRqJavo
"and Dr. Dre said...NOTHING YOU IDIOTS. Dr. Dre's dead, he's locked in my basement!"
3. "It Fit" - Crystal Castles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYee3k5dRBg
This song makes me want to party soooo badly.
4. "Bad Romance" - Lady Gaga
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ACm9yECwSso
Don't even think of judging me. I love lady g.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
i've got fear for my own name
Phone companies/contracts are confusinggggggggggggggggg
Do I go with Bell, which is tried, tested and true, and also affordable and has what I need
or do I go with Virgin Mobile, which is tooootally strange to me, but has better long distance (so I can phone Ruby for less money), but would mean having less overall minutes and features - also not getting the exact phone that I want. Hmmm, it would also be cheaper right off the bat, because a 2 year contract is free with Virgin, but $80 with Bell.
AHHHH I DON'T KNOWWWW. And if I ask my Mum for help with this, she'll freak out at me and not want to do it at all. Goddamnit!
Also, I just found out my bank account got compromised! So now I no longer have a working bank card. YAY HOW LOVELY. And my Mum lost my birth certificate somehow, so I might not be able to get a new one. fgkjdfkghdfghdo AHHHHHHHHHHHH
I'm having a very inconvenient couple of days, my goodness.
As a side note, you should all listen to Blind Pilot, cause he's really cuuuuute =)
Do I go with Bell, which is tried, tested and true, and also affordable and has what I need
or do I go with Virgin Mobile, which is tooootally strange to me, but has better long distance (so I can phone Ruby for less money), but would mean having less overall minutes and features - also not getting the exact phone that I want. Hmmm, it would also be cheaper right off the bat, because a 2 year contract is free with Virgin, but $80 with Bell.
AHHHH I DON'T KNOWWWW. And if I ask my Mum for help with this, she'll freak out at me and not want to do it at all. Goddamnit!
Also, I just found out my bank account got compromised! So now I no longer have a working bank card. YAY HOW LOVELY. And my Mum lost my birth certificate somehow, so I might not be able to get a new one. fgkjdfkghdfghdo AHHHHHHHHHHHH
I'm having a very inconvenient couple of days, my goodness.
As a side note, you should all listen to Blind Pilot, cause he's really cuuuuute =)
Saturday, November 21, 2009
I AM SO FRUSTRATED AHHHH BITCH BITCH BITCH
My boss just decided today to not pay me. THANK YOU, RHONDA, HOW CONSIDERATE OF YOU. So now that my weekend is FINALLY here, and I actually have plans and reasons to need money, I have none. great. awesome. thank you so much. fjgkjdfhgkjdfhgkhdfg FUCK MY LIFE.
And Mum bailed on getting a new phone with me today, which means I have to keep using the stupid broken one I have now. She's bailed like, 3 times now. ughhhhhhhh
My chair also broke today, which is super sad cause I've had it since I was little.
Things aren't actually as bad as I'm making them seem. I can get through this weekend easily, it would just be a billion times nicer/more convenient if they would work out the way they were supposed to the first time. Like, for once, that would be nice? Goddamnittttttttttt.
So instead of thinking about things like this, I'm going to go shower, and then meet up with people, and then go to Allisons and get ridiculously drunk and see where that takes me! (it should be to good places!)
And Mum bailed on getting a new phone with me today, which means I have to keep using the stupid broken one I have now. She's bailed like, 3 times now. ughhhhhhhh
My chair also broke today, which is super sad cause I've had it since I was little.
Things aren't actually as bad as I'm making them seem. I can get through this weekend easily, it would just be a billion times nicer/more convenient if they would work out the way they were supposed to the first time. Like, for once, that would be nice? Goddamnittttttttttt.
So instead of thinking about things like this, I'm going to go shower, and then meet up with people, and then go to Allisons and get ridiculously drunk and see where that takes me! (it should be to good places!)
Friday, November 20, 2009
come on, skinny love
lalallala
so
Tony gave me my own toothbrush to leave at his house when I was there yesterday(!?) It was cute and funny and unexpected. Maybe he thinks I'm going to be around a lot more often? Or its an invitation to do so? Anyway, it made me giggle.
He also like, forced some of his shirts on me, which is okay because they smell nice and actually fit me because for the first time in my life I'm with someone who isn't 10 times bigger than me.
Aaaaaand I'm pretty sure I passed out on top of him because we were drunk and watching like, X-Men or something.
And when we woke up this morning at 6 because he was leaving for Nelson, he told me to stay in bed and sleep before going to work, and kissed me goodbye and was adorable.
eeee everything is cute and ridiculous right now.
but. I am still not going to get attached.
A lot of other things, however, are LAAAAAAAAME right now. Plus, I'm getting sick which I DO NOT WANT for this weekend. Ughhh.
I'm gonna go live in my bubble now.
here! my gift of adorable songs!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VUvILO8qNgE&feature=rec-LGOUT-real_rn-HM
so
Tony gave me my own toothbrush to leave at his house when I was there yesterday(!?) It was cute and funny and unexpected. Maybe he thinks I'm going to be around a lot more often? Or its an invitation to do so? Anyway, it made me giggle.
He also like, forced some of his shirts on me, which is okay because they smell nice and actually fit me because for the first time in my life I'm with someone who isn't 10 times bigger than me.
Aaaaaand I'm pretty sure I passed out on top of him because we were drunk and watching like, X-Men or something.
And when we woke up this morning at 6 because he was leaving for Nelson, he told me to stay in bed and sleep before going to work, and kissed me goodbye and was adorable.
eeee everything is cute and ridiculous right now.
but. I am still not going to get attached.
A lot of other things, however, are LAAAAAAAAME right now. Plus, I'm getting sick which I DO NOT WANT for this weekend. Ughhh.
I'm gonna go live in my bubble now.
here! my gift of adorable songs!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VUvILO8qNgE&feature=rec-LGOUT-real_rn-HM
Monday, November 9, 2009
UGH
SO. K.
I'm so frustrated with so many people right now. I'm trying not to be, because I feel like a huge spazz, but I'm not the only one who feels like this right now....
FRIENDS NEED TO STOP MIXING WITH/FUCKING/LIKING/BEING DOWN FOR OTHER FRIENDS. everyones making these fucked up switcheroos and it's REALLY not cool.
i can't even express how much this is stressing me out and pissing me off.
everyone needs to just eff off and find someone from a different circle, that no one else knows or cares about, and who can be completely new and drama free. this is just getting ridiculous.
Marija and I got in our first fight ever about this the other day. I AM SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED. I ended up breaking down in Josh's car the other day with Emma. Like, full on hysterics and almost unable to breathe and wanting to punch things. Seriously. This is not okay.
In other news. I went on a date with the old man today, and we actually had a really good time. I'd be down for him if he was 10 years younger, for sure.
lalalallalalallala i'm gonna go get stonedddd.
p.s right at this moment I wish I had a real boyfriend....OH WELL. GUESS NOT.
fuck my life.
I'm so frustrated with so many people right now. I'm trying not to be, because I feel like a huge spazz, but I'm not the only one who feels like this right now....
FRIENDS NEED TO STOP MIXING WITH/FUCKING/LIKING/BEING DOWN FOR OTHER FRIENDS. everyones making these fucked up switcheroos and it's REALLY not cool.
i can't even express how much this is stressing me out and pissing me off.
everyone needs to just eff off and find someone from a different circle, that no one else knows or cares about, and who can be completely new and drama free. this is just getting ridiculous.
Marija and I got in our first fight ever about this the other day. I AM SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED. I ended up breaking down in Josh's car the other day with Emma. Like, full on hysterics and almost unable to breathe and wanting to punch things. Seriously. This is not okay.
In other news. I went on a date with the old man today, and we actually had a really good time. I'd be down for him if he was 10 years younger, for sure.
lalalallalalallala i'm gonna go get stonedddd.
p.s right at this moment I wish I had a real boyfriend....OH WELL. GUESS NOT.
fuck my life.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
this is ridiculous
Dear S, D, K, and the other another K
I haven't done anything to any of you. If you'd like to go and play your game where you side with the person who was wrong, you can please be my guest. However, that does not justify rude behavior towards me in any way, shape, or form.
I was "friends" with you all at one point, and this is beyond stupid right now.
Y'all are shitty anyway!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
seriously...
I had another dream last night.
I'm starting to scare myself. Maybe even depress myself a little bit. Dreams do have meaning though, right?
I think I might need councelling.
I'm starting to scare myself. Maybe even depress myself a little bit. Dreams do have meaning though, right?
I think I might need councelling.
Monday, October 19, 2009
ugh
I just woke up from one of those dreams that's so good it's terrifying. The kind of dream that you want to happen so badly, but you know never will - so it becomes a nightmare. I tried to wake myself up from it for so long, but I just couldn't. It was like my brain was trying to torture itself by believing something that was 100% not true/ever going to happen.
The thing about it though, was even though I wanted it to be real so badly, or maybe even like deja-vu, the thought terrified me so much that when I finally woke up, it was in a cold sweat.
It was so good for the short time that I thought it was real. I even looked at my phone to make sure that the "text messages" sent in the dream hadn't been sent - thankfully they hadn't.
I'm not making any sense, but I kind of feel like crying.
The thing about it though, was even though I wanted it to be real so badly, or maybe even like deja-vu, the thought terrified me so much that when I finally woke up, it was in a cold sweat.
It was so good for the short time that I thought it was real. I even looked at my phone to make sure that the "text messages" sent in the dream hadn't been sent - thankfully they hadn't.
I'm not making any sense, but I kind of feel like crying.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
a ghost or some shit!
So, I think somewhere in the back of my mind a switch was turned on, which is now telling me to shop my pains away. I know - this sounds like me in the 9th grade or something, when I spent my college money, but this time it's different because I've worked so effing hard for every dollar I've made.
The other day I dropped $150 in 15 minutes, which is pretty impressive if I do say so myself.
I guess it's easier though to just spoil yourself when something shitty happens to you, because that way you get to make yourself feel better by bumping your self esteem up. (not that mine was particularily low or anything, but just the same) Anyway, I feel a billion times better and hotter and overall just greater because of it. =)
I've also been drinking...way. too. much. I didn't even really realize it until last night when Marija and I dropped like, 60 bucks on drinks at Raina's birthday dinner. Holy shit, phil! I mean, it's not thaaaat much, but when you look at the amount that you're getting for the money you're paying...not down. Not down at all. I got super shitfaced though, which was lovely as always.
Anyway, I feel like I need some kind of new male in my life. Just like, a completely new guy who knows nothing about me and we can just hit it off. Honestly, there are two guys right now that I know are pursuing me in hopes of us dating, and another just for sex, and it's gotten really boring. I just want someone fitting to come along who's cool and nice and a mystery. hgjfgkjhkjghbkgf WHY IS THAT SO HARD?
Also, Simon saw Beau and Alaina holding hands walking by the Safeway on Broadway and Commercial the other day. He looked up to wave to them, and Beau purposely looked away all guiltily. Then Simon overheard him say: "yeah, I used to like that guy. I don't anymore". Really, now?! Is that what this has come to? Jeeze.
I was upset about it at first, but I don't care anymore. I'm pretty happy to say I'm finally completely over it. I hope they're happy/miserable together.
The end for now!
Oh, but wait!
I went to Deadmau5 on Friday with Ruby and Sophie, and holy shiiiiiit it was a fun time. It was such a fun night of dancing a ridiculous amount and chain smoking. And I got to see the boys from the cabin for the first time! I also got Lorne and Scott's numbers, and they said they want to hang out sometime (which I doubt will actually happen, because I don't know why on earth they'd want to legitimately chill with an 18 year old...but SURE). Seeing Zach was a bit awk too, but whatever. And my looooooord Josh was just done. It kinda reminded me of old times though, which is silly to say. I guess I'm just more used to seeing him about to pass out/unable to stand up than Ruby and Sophie are, after that week of debauchery. lalalalala
And another also! Ruby's leaving for Katimavik in like, 3 days. I'm so not ready for this, and I'm so sad. I'm going to miss her a boatload.
The other day I dropped $150 in 15 minutes, which is pretty impressive if I do say so myself.
I guess it's easier though to just spoil yourself when something shitty happens to you, because that way you get to make yourself feel better by bumping your self esteem up. (not that mine was particularily low or anything, but just the same) Anyway, I feel a billion times better and hotter and overall just greater because of it. =)
I've also been drinking...way. too. much. I didn't even really realize it until last night when Marija and I dropped like, 60 bucks on drinks at Raina's birthday dinner. Holy shit, phil! I mean, it's not thaaaat much, but when you look at the amount that you're getting for the money you're paying...not down. Not down at all. I got super shitfaced though, which was lovely as always.
Anyway, I feel like I need some kind of new male in my life. Just like, a completely new guy who knows nothing about me and we can just hit it off. Honestly, there are two guys right now that I know are pursuing me in hopes of us dating, and another just for sex, and it's gotten really boring. I just want someone fitting to come along who's cool and nice and a mystery. hgjfgkjhkjghbkgf WHY IS THAT SO HARD?
Also, Simon saw Beau and Alaina holding hands walking by the Safeway on Broadway and Commercial the other day. He looked up to wave to them, and Beau purposely looked away all guiltily. Then Simon overheard him say: "yeah, I used to like that guy. I don't anymore". Really, now?! Is that what this has come to? Jeeze.
I was upset about it at first, but I don't care anymore. I'm pretty happy to say I'm finally completely over it. I hope they're happy/miserable together.
The end for now!
Oh, but wait!
I went to Deadmau5 on Friday with Ruby and Sophie, and holy shiiiiiit it was a fun time. It was such a fun night of dancing a ridiculous amount and chain smoking. And I got to see the boys from the cabin for the first time! I also got Lorne and Scott's numbers, and they said they want to hang out sometime (which I doubt will actually happen, because I don't know why on earth they'd want to legitimately chill with an 18 year old...but SURE). Seeing Zach was a bit awk too, but whatever. And my looooooord Josh was just done. It kinda reminded me of old times though, which is silly to say. I guess I'm just more used to seeing him about to pass out/unable to stand up than Ruby and Sophie are, after that week of debauchery. lalalalala
And another also! Ruby's leaving for Katimavik in like, 3 days. I'm so not ready for this, and I'm so sad. I'm going to miss her a boatload.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
UGHHHHH OH MY GOD I'M GOING TO KNOCK SOMEONE
So, it turns out that Beau cheated on me. Good fucking times. I just found out this morning, and Beau himself didn't even tell me. (I'm not going to go into details about how I found out) Here are some stupid signs that I only half saw as reasons why something like this might happen:
1) Friday night, which was when it would've happened, he went out for dinner and bowling with her. They also got drunk. And given that the only things I've heard of her are her sexual escapades, I didn't trust the situation at all. Then he called me at 3 am to say that his step-dad was driving him home, so he was going to get there safely. Randy would never in a million years pick Beau up at that time on a Friday night, because he would be drunk and lazy. Plus, he was at a party at Jericho, and his parents live in New West. There is NO WAY that that would've/could've happened.
- also, I asked him if he'd driven her home that night, and he said yes. Umm, if the car ride never happened, and he somehow got her home..where did they go?
2) We went and had dinner with his Dad on Saturday, and when he first saw me he looked like he was going to cry. I looked really good that night, I'm not going to lie, and he couldn't stop talking about how happy he was he was with me. Before the movie, we were downstairs having a smoke in this alley thing that we used to blaze in all the time when I worked at Metrotown. That was when he told me that he's been so depressed lately that he's been unable to even think of having sex. I didn't really question it, because when I'm not entirely happy, I'm not down to have sex either, so I thought nothing of it. Besides, I had my period so I wasn't about to bone him anyway. During the movie he seemed super distant (how does one even seem distant during a movie? Well, he did it), and wouldn't hold my hand. When I asked him what was going on, he smiled and acted like nothing was wrong, but it was obvious that he had something on his mind.
3) He slept over at my house that night, and groped me like a mother fucker. It was to the point that I actually had to tell him to fuck off and stop. After that, he sent me to bed, as though I was 5 years old, and promptly began texting Alaina, who'd sent him two messages earlier that night which he recieved, but didn't look at - I saw him get them too, and when I asked him who he was texting, he said "oh..no one. don't worry about it" and that was the end of that. Which seems pretty much like, "oh hey, you cannot see this, because she's saying some things that you don't want to hear/see", how lovely, hey?
4) When we actually broke up, he said all this shit about "don't worry, we'll be happy with other people, just give it some time" and made me swear that we'd be able to be friends.
UM, NOT IF YOU CHEATED ON ME, WE WON'T.
5) He talked to my brother today, and asked him what he thought of Alaina, to which he replied "uhhhh, didn't you just break up with my sister?!". And he's bringing her out to a show on Friday, which I was supposed to go to.
I could fucking knock someone.
I can't believe that I trusted him. Ever. All he's ever done was hurt me and bring me problems, and now it really finally shows. I'm done. Absolutely and utterly.
1) Friday night, which was when it would've happened, he went out for dinner and bowling with her. They also got drunk. And given that the only things I've heard of her are her sexual escapades, I didn't trust the situation at all. Then he called me at 3 am to say that his step-dad was driving him home, so he was going to get there safely. Randy would never in a million years pick Beau up at that time on a Friday night, because he would be drunk and lazy. Plus, he was at a party at Jericho, and his parents live in New West. There is NO WAY that that would've/could've happened.
- also, I asked him if he'd driven her home that night, and he said yes. Umm, if the car ride never happened, and he somehow got her home..where did they go?
2) We went and had dinner with his Dad on Saturday, and when he first saw me he looked like he was going to cry. I looked really good that night, I'm not going to lie, and he couldn't stop talking about how happy he was he was with me. Before the movie, we were downstairs having a smoke in this alley thing that we used to blaze in all the time when I worked at Metrotown. That was when he told me that he's been so depressed lately that he's been unable to even think of having sex. I didn't really question it, because when I'm not entirely happy, I'm not down to have sex either, so I thought nothing of it. Besides, I had my period so I wasn't about to bone him anyway. During the movie he seemed super distant (how does one even seem distant during a movie? Well, he did it), and wouldn't hold my hand. When I asked him what was going on, he smiled and acted like nothing was wrong, but it was obvious that he had something on his mind.
3) He slept over at my house that night, and groped me like a mother fucker. It was to the point that I actually had to tell him to fuck off and stop. After that, he sent me to bed, as though I was 5 years old, and promptly began texting Alaina, who'd sent him two messages earlier that night which he recieved, but didn't look at - I saw him get them too, and when I asked him who he was texting, he said "oh..no one. don't worry about it" and that was the end of that. Which seems pretty much like, "oh hey, you cannot see this, because she's saying some things that you don't want to hear/see", how lovely, hey?
4) When we actually broke up, he said all this shit about "don't worry, we'll be happy with other people, just give it some time" and made me swear that we'd be able to be friends.
UM, NOT IF YOU CHEATED ON ME, WE WON'T.
5) He talked to my brother today, and asked him what he thought of Alaina, to which he replied "uhhhh, didn't you just break up with my sister?!". And he's bringing her out to a show on Friday, which I was supposed to go to.
I could fucking knock someone.
I can't believe that I trusted him. Ever. All he's ever done was hurt me and bring me problems, and now it really finally shows. I'm done. Absolutely and utterly.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
haha guess what?!
i'm writing this at work right now, because thats how chill my job is.
SUCKASSSSSSS
SUCKASSSSSSS
Monday, September 7, 2009
ahh blog, i've missed you!
I don't even really know where to start - it's been so long!
I've been super up and down lately, which is odd because I don't normally suffer from mood swings. As of recently (as in the past couple of days) it's been so bad I've nearly burst into tears on several occasions: like yesterday when I was on my way home from work and the bus was 20 minutes late so I had to wait in the rain. Not a big deal, I know, but it was painful. I hope this goes away soon, because I hate it, and have noooo idea how to deal with myself right now.
On the other hand! My work is awesome! Granted, I work mostly with old people (my boss opened the store with her husband 25 years ago), but the young people I work with are pretty sweet. It's sooooo chill there too. We sit around all day and don't ever have to initiate talking to anyone - which is super nice compared to Lush, where we had to talk to every person within 30 seconds of them coming into the store. We also don't have to sweep or mop, and the only tidying up we ever have to do is of the Thomas set that the kids play with.
BY THE WAY, I love Thomas!
We're the only store in the market that sells Thomas, so learning about him was very important and intense. We have over 20 characters in the store, and about a billion different sets that people can buy ranging from $40-$350. It's cool and all, but it's absolutely ridiculous how much parents'll spend on their kids, especially when this particular group is aimed at kids from about 1-7 years old. Ayaaaaa
But yeah but yeah but yeah, I'm getting paid $10/hour, and I'm working 5 days a week = MONAY IN DA BANK. The only semi-shitty thing is that I'm not going to be full time until at least October...but I do have weekends off! Anyway, I'm happy about all that.
Bahhh I don't even know what else is going on. Uh, I watch a lot of Law and Order:SVU because we have hella channels now? ahah thats really about it.
Hopefully now that I've bitten the bullet I can actually start writing on here again - maybe even at work, cause we're allowed to go on the internet? =D
Big Brother Blog, coming soon!
I've been super up and down lately, which is odd because I don't normally suffer from mood swings. As of recently (as in the past couple of days) it's been so bad I've nearly burst into tears on several occasions: like yesterday when I was on my way home from work and the bus was 20 minutes late so I had to wait in the rain. Not a big deal, I know, but it was painful. I hope this goes away soon, because I hate it, and have noooo idea how to deal with myself right now.
On the other hand! My work is awesome! Granted, I work mostly with old people (my boss opened the store with her husband 25 years ago), but the young people I work with are pretty sweet. It's sooooo chill there too. We sit around all day and don't ever have to initiate talking to anyone - which is super nice compared to Lush, where we had to talk to every person within 30 seconds of them coming into the store. We also don't have to sweep or mop, and the only tidying up we ever have to do is of the Thomas set that the kids play with.
BY THE WAY, I love Thomas!
We're the only store in the market that sells Thomas, so learning about him was very important and intense. We have over 20 characters in the store, and about a billion different sets that people can buy ranging from $40-$350. It's cool and all, but it's absolutely ridiculous how much parents'll spend on their kids, especially when this particular group is aimed at kids from about 1-7 years old. Ayaaaaa
But yeah but yeah but yeah, I'm getting paid $10/hour, and I'm working 5 days a week = MONAY IN DA BANK. The only semi-shitty thing is that I'm not going to be full time until at least October...but I do have weekends off! Anyway, I'm happy about all that.
Bahhh I don't even know what else is going on. Uh, I watch a lot of Law and Order:SVU because we have hella channels now? ahah thats really about it.
Hopefully now that I've bitten the bullet I can actually start writing on here again - maybe even at work, cause we're allowed to go on the internet? =D
Big Brother Blog, coming soon!
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
things are going well!
I'm pretty happy right now. Wanna know why?
1) I got a job! I'm gonna start working at Knotty Toys in Granville Island on Monday. It's a small toy store in the Kids Only Market, and it's absolutely adorable! They sell wooden toys and things like that, and it's the cutest tinyest little store. I love it! The manager/owner also totally loved me because of Lush and volunteering at the Children's Festival for the past 5 years. Woo!
It's also not that hard for me to get there, cause I can just take the 84 or walk from my house. There's also the downtown option too. How exciting!
2) I'm probably going to start taking tennis lessons again with my old coach, Gord Hauka. He's the best coach I've ever had, and one of the nicest people I've ever met. It's gonna be super fun! All I need now is a new partner, because Ella's moving to Montreal. Any takers?
3) I'm looking into moving out! And it might happen - "how" is going to be my little secret for the time being.
4) Simon's home! It was so unexpectedly, too! He called me on my birthday and said he'd be back probably sometime in mid-September, and then two days ago he called me and said he was in the city! It was one of the most pleasant surprises in a long time.
There's more too, but right now I'm getting so giddy I can hardly type, so I'll end it here. Ahhhhh yay!
1) I got a job! I'm gonna start working at Knotty Toys in Granville Island on Monday. It's a small toy store in the Kids Only Market, and it's absolutely adorable! They sell wooden toys and things like that, and it's the cutest tinyest little store. I love it! The manager/owner also totally loved me because of Lush and volunteering at the Children's Festival for the past 5 years. Woo!
It's also not that hard for me to get there, cause I can just take the 84 or walk from my house. There's also the downtown option too. How exciting!
2) I'm probably going to start taking tennis lessons again with my old coach, Gord Hauka. He's the best coach I've ever had, and one of the nicest people I've ever met. It's gonna be super fun! All I need now is a new partner, because Ella's moving to Montreal. Any takers?
3) I'm looking into moving out! And it might happen - "how" is going to be my little secret for the time being.
4) Simon's home! It was so unexpectedly, too! He called me on my birthday and said he'd be back probably sometime in mid-September, and then two days ago he called me and said he was in the city! It was one of the most pleasant surprises in a long time.
There's more too, but right now I'm getting so giddy I can hardly type, so I'll end it here. Ahhhhh yay!
Big Brother!
BOOM BITCH, GONE!Probably one of the happiest "evictions" this season was Chima's. She spent a good two days after Jesse was evicted crying with Lydia and Natalie, and it was just getting pathetic. Honestly, Jesse wasn't even a good competitor. The only reason anyone liked having him in the house was because he'd flirt with all the other girls, and fuck Lydia (omg I knowwww!)
So ridiculous.
Anyway, Chima wasn't technically evicted from the house - she wouldn't put her microphone on, and eventually after having a series of hissy fits, she threw it into the hot tub and the Executive Producer, Allison Grodner brought her into the Diary Room and told her to go home. And that was that.
Unfortunately though, because Chima was up for eviction, Michelle's rule as HOH was overthrown, and another HOH competition had to be held. But omgomgomgomgomg it ended so perfectly! JORDAN WON HOH! And in the cutest way possible, too. The final two competitors were Jeff and Jordan, and Jeff let her win it because he knew how badly she wanted it. It was the most adorable thing - the competition was mini golf, and he purposely flung his ball wayyyy away from the hole. So cute. They're my fave couple for life.
Obviously Jordan put Natalie and Lydia up for eviction, but I don't think it's going to end up the way either of them think...Lydia's the pawn, because none of the Good's are prepared to send her home so quickly to be with Jesse. However Natalie's actually a pretty good competitor, and would make the game a lot more difficult if she stuck around. So, PEACE.
Evictions are Thursday, and I'm hyped.
The only issue is what will happen when Natalie and Lydia are gone...The alliance's in the house won't be able to exist, and they'll have to kick friends out, which'll be tricky. We'll see how this goes.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
my life right now.
I don't like you but I love you
Seems that I'm always thinking of you
Oh, you treat me badly, I love you madly
You really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)
Said you really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)
I don't want you but I need you
Don't want to kiss you but I need to
Oh, you do me wrong, now
My love is strong, now
You really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)
Said you really got a hold on me(
You really got a hold on me)
I love you and all I want you to do is just
Hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me
I want to leave you, don't want to stay here
I don't want to spend another day here
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you do me wrong, now
My love is strong, now
You really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)
I said you really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)
I love you and all I want you to do is just
Hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me
You really got a hold on me - She and Him
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTAjLwWNITg
Seems that I'm always thinking of you
Oh, you treat me badly, I love you madly
You really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)
Said you really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)
I don't want you but I need you
Don't want to kiss you but I need to
Oh, you do me wrong, now
My love is strong, now
You really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)
Said you really got a hold on me(
You really got a hold on me)
I love you and all I want you to do is just
Hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me
I want to leave you, don't want to stay here
I don't want to spend another day here
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you do me wrong, now
My love is strong, now
You really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)
I said you really got a hold on me
(You really got a hold on me)
I love you and all I want you to do is just
Hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me, hold me
You really got a hold on me - She and Him
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTAjLwWNITg
Big Brother!
Ooooooh man. What an exciting episode!
With Jesse gone, the house has been divided into two groups: Good and Bad. The Good group consists of Russell, Jordan, Jeff and Michelle, and the Bad are Chima, Lydia and Natalie. Kevin doesn't quite fit anywhere, because he's playing both sides. He did have an alliance with the Bad group, but he also wanted Jesse out of the house - so he's very happy with Jeff right now. He doesn't want them to know how he feels, because he knows he's in a weak spot and could be outed really easily.
Anyway, Michelle won HOH, which was confusing for everyone because no one could really tell (at first) who she cared about and who she didn't. After siding with the Good's, her place in the house was cemented, and the other 3 girls were scared.
She ended up putting Natalie and Chima up for eviction, saying that Chima was too intense of a competitor and she wouldn't be able to beat her in the final two - Natalie was the pawn. So Chima's pisssedddddddddddd! Whatever though, rumour has it that Chima got kicked off the show sometime in the past couple of days, but it hasn't been aired yet. Apparently it was because she got super angry and wouldn't participate in competitions & threw her mic into the hot tub twice. Dumb bitch, she deserved it.
Also!
the power couple is still powering on! 
cute cute cute!
a family photo....minus one!
ohh this hate for Russell is just getting ridiculous.
but look at where Jeff's hand is on Jordan's thigh!
Lydia has the dumbest tattoo's i've ever seen.
gross
Ch-ch-ch-ch-CHIMA PETS
happy to see you go!
With Jesse gone, the house has been divided into two groups: Good and Bad. The Good group consists of Russell, Jordan, Jeff and Michelle, and the Bad are Chima, Lydia and Natalie. Kevin doesn't quite fit anywhere, because he's playing both sides. He did have an alliance with the Bad group, but he also wanted Jesse out of the house - so he's very happy with Jeff right now. He doesn't want them to know how he feels, because he knows he's in a weak spot and could be outed really easily.
Anyway, Michelle won HOH, which was confusing for everyone because no one could really tell (at first) who she cared about and who she didn't. After siding with the Good's, her place in the house was cemented, and the other 3 girls were scared.
She ended up putting Natalie and Chima up for eviction, saying that Chima was too intense of a competitor and she wouldn't be able to beat her in the final two - Natalie was the pawn. So Chima's pisssedddddddddddd! Whatever though, rumour has it that Chima got kicked off the show sometime in the past couple of days, but it hasn't been aired yet. Apparently it was because she got super angry and wouldn't participate in competitions & threw her mic into the hot tub twice. Dumb bitch, she deserved it.
Also!
the power couple is still powering on!Russell and Jordan were talking on the patio, and he asked her how she really felt about Jeff. She replied that she liked him, and would consider him as a boyfriend if he lived in the same town as her, even though she's only 22 and he's 31. Russell immediately told Jeff (right infront of Jordan, so it wasn't rude or mean or anything), and Jeff blushed and....asked Jordan to marry him! Now, it's only a cute thing and all, and I know that, but still - it's super cute! Then they had a long conversation about the type of engagement ring she'd want. In the diary room Jeff even said that he thought Jordan would make a good wife and mother, because of her southern charm. Awwwwww.
Have some more photos from Chima's HOH album!
cute cute cute!
a family photo....minus one!ohh this hate for Russell is just getting ridiculous.
but look at where Jeff's hand is on Jordan's thigh!
Lydia has the dumbest tattoo's i've ever seen.gross
Ch-ch-ch-ch-CHIMA PETS
happy to see you go!she looks like the cover of a really bad R&B cd or ad campaign.
I'm not gonna lie
I miss him.
After yesterday, for the first real time, I'm hurting.
I didn't think it would be this hard.
After yesterday, for the first real time, I'm hurting.
I didn't think it would be this hard.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Big Brother!
Long time no update about my favorite show, eh? Well don't worry! I'm back in full force!
So guess what finally happened today? This did ladies and gents!:
So guess what finally happened today? This did ladies and gents!:
hooray!
Jesse was dumb and annoying and much too much of a schemer for me, so I'm very happy to see him go. The funny thing though was how he ended up going...
So k, Shima was the HOH this week, and she put Russell and Lydia up for eviction.
It was obvious that Russell would go up, because he and Shima had been fighting all week, and their alliance fell to pieces. Jesse and Natalie were on Shima's side, and they wanted him out, so her choice was the most strategic for her alliance.
Lydia on the other hand, must've been a pawn. Shima's never shown anything against her, and because of her blatant hate for Russell, she knew she was pretty much in the clear.
I'm not entirely sure how I feel about Lydia...She's overly tattoed, loud, and kind of obnoxious even though it's obvious that she has self esteem issues. But whatever, honestly, she didn't do anything too mean to anyone, and for that, I have to respect her.
Kevin had the POV, but chose not to use it to save either of the two nominees - which was totally uncalled for because he and Lydia had been best friends/allies in the house ever since the first episode when they got put in the Off Beats clique together. DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA. But Lydia didn't seem that mad at him for it, because she knew she wouldn't be the one going home.
So anyway, the reason for the toss up was that Jeff had the Coup D'Etat, which meant that he could put whoever he wanted up on the block - and he did! He and Jordan have been against Jesse and Natalie for the entire game, and they've been especially wierd to them all week since J+N tried to suck up to them.
So ha ha ha ha ha ha! Serves them right. The dynamic two-some was put up, which shook the house up in the most dramatic way imaginable. The final vote ended up being 2 for Natalie and 3 for Jesse, which was the reason why he got sent home. Ooooooh what a happy episode! The house is going to shift now!
Also, Michelle just won HOH, which means a boy will defs be up on the block this week!
my sentiments lately
I'm not gonna lie, I've felt totally abandonned over the past week or so. My birthday was two days ago, and only one person made any effort to see me - I had some phone calls, but nothing that really left an impact. One group of people actually phoned me at 8:30 or something and were all hanging out, but chose not to ask me to go out with them because my ex-boyfriend would be showing up, and they couldn't tell him to fuck off for one night. I ended up going home that night and passing out on my couch, and then Marija came over after work and woke me up with two bottles of wine.
I know that I've fucked up lately, and I have done some things to hurt people - no wait, ONE PERSON. I hurt one person. But that is no reason for everyone to involve themselves in my shit. I know who's been stabbing me in the back, and finding out wasn't difficult. Some people have even had the nerve to ask me to hang out shortly after I've found out they were talking about me. At this point, I don't really care if I end up with no friends, because if I have a bunch like this, there's really no point. I'd rather be alone and happy than with a group of two-faced people. I'm done with drama. I've accepted my faults and apologized for my wrongs. I'm ready to grow up, and whoever's interested should do the same and not be afraid of it. Anyone who wants the truth can come to me to get it, because I don't have anything to hide anymore - don't go making shit up and making it seem like I'm some kind of terrible person, because I'm not.
Good fucking riddance.
I know that I've fucked up lately, and I have done some things to hurt people - no wait, ONE PERSON. I hurt one person. But that is no reason for everyone to involve themselves in my shit. I know who's been stabbing me in the back, and finding out wasn't difficult. Some people have even had the nerve to ask me to hang out shortly after I've found out they were talking about me. At this point, I don't really care if I end up with no friends, because if I have a bunch like this, there's really no point. I'd rather be alone and happy than with a group of two-faced people. I'm done with drama. I've accepted my faults and apologized for my wrongs. I'm ready to grow up, and whoever's interested should do the same and not be afraid of it. Anyone who wants the truth can come to me to get it, because I don't have anything to hide anymore - don't go making shit up and making it seem like I'm some kind of terrible person, because I'm not.
Good fucking riddance.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Guess who's back!
I'm hooooooome!
After a week of debautchery, i'm finally back and my liver hurts like hell. We were all pretty much drunk for 6 days straight - and I mean hammered. It was ridiculous, but awesome. I'm pretty hyped though, because I have a sweet tan (including a lovely sunglasses and band-aid tan!), and my nose is peeling = I won't have acne for a very long time. Holla!
The trip was amazing though. I was the only girl for most of it, which I initially thought would be wierd/awkward/a rape sesh, but it was actually really cool. I kinda feel like I've lost all of my femininity though, after sitting through male versions of sex stories, in dept conversations about bodily functions, etc etc. I feel pretty...enlightened now though. It's definetely interesting to see how guys interpret situations as opposed to girls. Some crazy shenanigans went down, but I'll never tell - I'm taking 'em to the grave.
Honestly though, being home feels so surreal. Especially seeing as it's RAINING outside right now (we only had one night of rain, but none of us really remember it) and I'm cold. Also, indoor plumbing is odd and so is my huge wardrobe that I'd completely forgotten about until I looked in my closet last night. It's amazing how little you can survive with for an extended period of time.
(I'm also not gonna lie..I missed 3 episodes of Big Brother. Not happy about that one little bit)
I'm also so sorry for any spelling mishaps that occured in this post/any others that are to come - my brain is fried and I hardly know how to speak anymore, let alone type/write things down.
Friday, July 31, 2009
There has been a twist!
Saddddd. Casey's gone! Better him than Jordan though, I guess. Big Brother this season has been all for taking out the nice people, and leaving the schemers in, like Ronnie, Jesse, Natalie and Russell, it's just silly. (Also, Russell was the only one to vote Jordan out - not down!)But there were two other surprises last night:
1) The cliques have been sepreated! Now no one will be protected when a team-member win's HOH - everyone has to fend for themselves. The show is definetely going to get more intense now, because the houseguests are going to have to rely on their alliances more than ever, and hope to god that they don't get stabbed in the back. We'll see how this unfolds!
2) The best of the two surprises, the new Coup d'Etat meaning, AMERICA/CANADA GETS TO VOTE. We, the viewers, now have the option of voting for a houseguest, who can then use the power of the Coup d'Etat to save the two nominees for eviction, and put their own nominees up just minutes before the vote. This means that everyone will have to really think about how they feel about each and every houseguest, and figure out what they would do in the event that they were up on the block. Also, the power of the Coup d'Etat is something that only the one who posesses it will know about - meaning, the other houseguests won't be told, so they can't think of gameplans. It's totally spur of the moment voting.
This, honestly, has been one of the coolest twists in any reality show I've ever seen. I love that I now have some kind of domination over the show!
Vote Jordan or Kevin! (or Jeff!) http://www.cbs.com/primetime/big_brother/interact/americas_vote/
And as a final gift from me to you, because you all care so much, here are some photos from the Big Brother fan group on Facebook. (I have some seeeerious issues)
power couple power couple! Aw man, they're adorable!
They're both so lame.
Ronnie wants da cock!
.....Seriously. This is not okay.
Monkey man Russell, so awesome yet so terrible.
I think this is the best picture I've ever seen. luv u, Kevin.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
letting go
To the boy who I used to love more than anything in the world,
the boy who said he'd never hurt me,
the boy who is losing himself,
the boy who still matters the most,
Beau Bennett.
I don't care if this embarasses you. I don't care if your friends, or anyone else for that matter, see's. I don't care if this makes you hate me forever, because it needs to be said.
I'm sitting here right now, thinking about what you're up to. And I know exactly what you're up to, and thats what bothers me so much. I know that at this moment, you're doing the one thing in the world that never fails to bring me to tears: you're getting fucked up. You're sitting in a shitty basement doing lines with your best friend, and trying to forget all about me. But I know you're thinking about me, because you know how much what you're doing hurts me.
Once upon a time, you promised me you'd take care of yourself, because you had greater plans in life than to end up like some of your friends. I didn't want the promise to be for me - but for yourself, because that's the one person you should never let down. When I told you that my greatest fear was that you would start doing drugs again, you cried. You promised never to make me feel that way ever again, because you know what its like to be let down. I believed you.
I believed with all of my heart that you would be the person that you had all the potential of being, and you were for a while - you were doing so much better. When we broke up, all that stopped. I started hearing that you were spending your days getting stoned and playing video games, never leaving Skylin's basement unless it was to pick up more weed.
I want to think that you're going to be better soon, once you get over me, but at this point I have no reason to feel that way. You're wasting your life, your intelligence, and your talent for absolutely nothing. I know the potential you have, because I've seen it. You could be one of the most amazing teachers in the world one day, you just have to set your mind to it and work for it. Right now, I want you to prove me wrong. Prove to me that you can be something, and make something of yourself, instead of living like a low life. Show me that you're better than your Mom, your friends, and any memory you have, and that you can do great things with yourself. MAKE ME SORRY to have doubted you. I want to one day apologize for ever thinking you couldn't do it, and for thinking that you might stay where you are right now.
Make something of yourself, because you can.
I love you. I always will love you, but you've let me down more than you can even imagine. I'll always have a place for you, even if we can never be around each other, let alone together, again. Just the same, you owe it to yourself to get some help, so that you don't end up an alcoholic, domestically abused, junkie like your Mother. Find someone who will be smart enough to medicate you, and figure your shit out. Learn to trust and love people again, and to get over the insecurities that tore us apart. Treat the next girl better than you treated me, and love her the way she deserves.
I hope that someday you'll remember me fondly, and not have any regrets. I hope you learn from everything that happened in every aspect of our relationship.
Please don't hate me for too long, because I really only want the best for you.
Love always,
Claire
the boy who said he'd never hurt me,
the boy who is losing himself,
the boy who still matters the most,
Beau Bennett.
I don't care if this embarasses you. I don't care if your friends, or anyone else for that matter, see's. I don't care if this makes you hate me forever, because it needs to be said.
I'm sitting here right now, thinking about what you're up to. And I know exactly what you're up to, and thats what bothers me so much. I know that at this moment, you're doing the one thing in the world that never fails to bring me to tears: you're getting fucked up. You're sitting in a shitty basement doing lines with your best friend, and trying to forget all about me. But I know you're thinking about me, because you know how much what you're doing hurts me.
Once upon a time, you promised me you'd take care of yourself, because you had greater plans in life than to end up like some of your friends. I didn't want the promise to be for me - but for yourself, because that's the one person you should never let down. When I told you that my greatest fear was that you would start doing drugs again, you cried. You promised never to make me feel that way ever again, because you know what its like to be let down. I believed you.
I believed with all of my heart that you would be the person that you had all the potential of being, and you were for a while - you were doing so much better. When we broke up, all that stopped. I started hearing that you were spending your days getting stoned and playing video games, never leaving Skylin's basement unless it was to pick up more weed.
I want to think that you're going to be better soon, once you get over me, but at this point I have no reason to feel that way. You're wasting your life, your intelligence, and your talent for absolutely nothing. I know the potential you have, because I've seen it. You could be one of the most amazing teachers in the world one day, you just have to set your mind to it and work for it. Right now, I want you to prove me wrong. Prove to me that you can be something, and make something of yourself, instead of living like a low life. Show me that you're better than your Mom, your friends, and any memory you have, and that you can do great things with yourself. MAKE ME SORRY to have doubted you. I want to one day apologize for ever thinking you couldn't do it, and for thinking that you might stay where you are right now.
Make something of yourself, because you can.
I love you. I always will love you, but you've let me down more than you can even imagine. I'll always have a place for you, even if we can never be around each other, let alone together, again. Just the same, you owe it to yourself to get some help, so that you don't end up an alcoholic, domestically abused, junkie like your Mother. Find someone who will be smart enough to medicate you, and figure your shit out. Learn to trust and love people again, and to get over the insecurities that tore us apart. Treat the next girl better than you treated me, and love her the way she deserves.
I hope that someday you'll remember me fondly, and not have any regrets. I hope you learn from everything that happened in every aspect of our relationship.
Please don't hate me for too long, because I really only want the best for you.
Love always,
Claire
Big Brother Big Brother Big Brother~!
Aw man, it's getting intense now. The boys in the house have decided to stay on Ronnie's side, and Jesse didn't put him up for eviction when he won HOH. EXCUUUUUSE ME?! I thought this was a done deal and that Ronnie would be out!Instead, Jesse put up Jordan and Michelle as pawns to get Casey out some other time.
But k, here's the thing: Michelle is a complete waste of time and space in the house. She doesn't do anything, she sides with the majority, and she sits around on her ass all day long. I know that sounds like a smart game plan, but it's boring to watch. If she doesn't make a move soon, I might be tempted just to mute the scenes when she's on. I know she's a member of the brains, but she isn't playing the game that smartly.
So anyway, the Power of Veto competition took place, and Michelle ended up winning. FUCK! I love Jordan so much, and she's one of my favorite players in the game. This slightly sunk her ship - or I guess more-so dented it, because Michelle wasn't all that liked in the house to begin with. Between the two of them, Michelle was definetely the one to go.
Obviously someone had to be put up on the block to replace Michelle, and Jesse decided to stab his ally in the back and put Casey up.
But k, here's the thing: Michelle is a complete waste of time and space in the house. She doesn't do anything, she sides with the majority, and she sits around on her ass all day long. I know that sounds like a smart game plan, but it's boring to watch. If she doesn't make a move soon, I might be tempted just to mute the scenes when she's on. I know she's a member of the brains, but she isn't playing the game that smartly.
So anyway, the Power of Veto competition took place, and Michelle ended up winning. FUCK! I love Jordan so much, and she's one of my favorite players in the game. This slightly sunk her ship - or I guess more-so dented it, because Michelle wasn't all that liked in the house to begin with. Between the two of them, Michelle was definetely the one to go.
Obviously someone had to be put up on the block to replace Michelle, and Jesse decided to stab his ally in the back and put Casey up.
Now, I'm not a huge fan of Casey - he actually kind of pisses me off. He's the 5th grade teacher/dj at some lame clubs in a small town. He's cocky and looks like what a poor, white, Snoop impersonator. Groooossss. But he's been doing pretty well so far in the game, and has been getting along with everyone - or so he thought. Jesse putting him up on the block instead of Ronnie was one of the biggest slaps in the face in the game.
So much drama....I love it!
Sunday, July 26, 2009
I've figured it out!
After like, forever and ever and ever of thinking about it, I've finally figured out boys. Well, kinda. They will never be happy unless they're chasing you - meaning, once you give in and let them know that they can have you, they're no longer interested. This has been the case with every male I've ever even gotten close to, and low and behold, its happening again.
So, the new plan is to be hard to get for the first time in my life. No contact whatsoever. If it doesn't happen because of my lack of effort, then so be it, but I will not be the one to give in. I'm going to be chased and desired and not used, and its going to be a permanent thing.
So, the new plan is to be hard to get for the first time in my life. No contact whatsoever. If it doesn't happen because of my lack of effort, then so be it, but I will not be the one to give in. I'm going to be chased and desired and not used, and its going to be a permanent thing.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Good day!
Today has been one of the best day's I've had in a while.
I woke up this morning and went out with Britt, and we went and got slurpees and wandered the drive. Then we went to this block of garage sales and I bought a really gorgeous lace vest for $1.50. SO HYPED. Britt ended up getting a bunch of planting pots and some bowls and a really cute leather bag for like, 7 bucks total or something? Things like that make me love summer, because its the only time of year you can be out for a walk and come across a bunch of cool things.
Afterwards I went over to Sophie's house, and we spent the afternoon lounging in the sun, eating food and blazing. It was a lovely time. Over the course of the day Ella, Kieran, Marissa, Deo, Patrick and her cousin Dinah all came over and joined in on the festivities, and we had a lovely old time. Dinah's really cool and chill and we get along quite well - she also looks a lot like me and said I could possibly borrow her i.d sometime! Cool!
Now tonight is one of those nights where it's necessary to sit at home and watch a cute girly movie with candles lit all around = that's my plan. I'm going to consume lots of popcorn and watch the movie "The Tracey Fragments" (I'll be posting about that one sometime later) with Marija and Lily.
It's so muggy and nice right now, and I'm unbelievably cozy. Plus the sky is red and theres thunder and lighting, and it's absolutely pouring right now. Mmmmm what a good day.
(have some pictures!)
Stoner baby!
the view from my house
so much water!
this side was sooo grey!
I woke up this morning and went out with Britt, and we went and got slurpees and wandered the drive. Then we went to this block of garage sales and I bought a really gorgeous lace vest for $1.50. SO HYPED. Britt ended up getting a bunch of planting pots and some bowls and a really cute leather bag for like, 7 bucks total or something? Things like that make me love summer, because its the only time of year you can be out for a walk and come across a bunch of cool things.
Afterwards I went over to Sophie's house, and we spent the afternoon lounging in the sun, eating food and blazing. It was a lovely time. Over the course of the day Ella, Kieran, Marissa, Deo, Patrick and her cousin Dinah all came over and joined in on the festivities, and we had a lovely old time. Dinah's really cool and chill and we get along quite well - she also looks a lot like me and said I could possibly borrow her i.d sometime! Cool!
Now tonight is one of those nights where it's necessary to sit at home and watch a cute girly movie with candles lit all around = that's my plan. I'm going to consume lots of popcorn and watch the movie "The Tracey Fragments" (I'll be posting about that one sometime later) with Marija and Lily.
It's so muggy and nice right now, and I'm unbelievably cozy. Plus the sky is red and theres thunder and lighting, and it's absolutely pouring right now. Mmmmm what a good day.
(have some pictures!)
Stoner baby!
the view from my house
so much water!
this side was sooo grey!Friday, July 24, 2009
japanese kitty stationary makes me happy.
Aw man, I got a letter from Simon today! So exciting and nice! I miss him already.
"Hey there,
So, I'm on the plane and I just read your YB message. Just so you know, it was picture perfect..Well, almost. As I read the words the plane started taking off, then I looked out as a single tear fell onto the pages and then that one Hilary Duff song you put on my iPod came on and ruined the Kodak montage. I realized that I never signed yours so slip this letter in there somewhere and we'll call it even. As for visiting, come anytime; my place is your place. I also think we should be penpals maybe? to help keep in touch? Oh and don't worry, I've made arrangements for Mario (the game, by the way) ....it's safe and awaiting your arrival, but enough of my departure! Its time for cheesy but useful wisdom in my pseudo-signing:
Claire, m'dear, this is Simonskeet. Thanks for being my best highschool bud! You're a true brah. We sure had a lot of fast times, good times, sweet times and rockin' times. Thanks for all of them. But I need to thank you the most for the shit times that made us stronger. I owe you an apology you see, late in grade 12 I realized a hypocrissy in myself. I'm living proof that you should make yourself #1, cause if you can't help yourself, how can you help others? And its okay to let people down, so long as you help them up again. Well then, time to leave you with a quote:
"The Great thing about ruins is onlu beauty comes from them; you can admire the mystery and memories or rebuild anew, repairing the mistakes of before" - Harrison Ford
I prefer the latter. Catch you on the flipside, space cowgirl.
xoxo Simonski
p.s, it's Bop-Ding! I win!"
My heart is bursting with love.
"Hey there,
So, I'm on the plane and I just read your YB message. Just so you know, it was picture perfect..Well, almost. As I read the words the plane started taking off, then I looked out as a single tear fell onto the pages and then that one Hilary Duff song you put on my iPod came on and ruined the Kodak montage. I realized that I never signed yours so slip this letter in there somewhere and we'll call it even. As for visiting, come anytime; my place is your place. I also think we should be penpals maybe? to help keep in touch? Oh and don't worry, I've made arrangements for Mario (the game, by the way) ....it's safe and awaiting your arrival, but enough of my departure! Its time for cheesy but useful wisdom in my pseudo-signing:
Claire, m'dear, this is Simonskeet. Thanks for being my best highschool bud! You're a true brah. We sure had a lot of fast times, good times, sweet times and rockin' times. Thanks for all of them. But I need to thank you the most for the shit times that made us stronger. I owe you an apology you see, late in grade 12 I realized a hypocrissy in myself. I'm living proof that you should make yourself #1, cause if you can't help yourself, how can you help others? And its okay to let people down, so long as you help them up again. Well then, time to leave you with a quote:
"The Great thing about ruins is onlu beauty comes from them; you can admire the mystery and memories or rebuild anew, repairing the mistakes of before" - Harrison Ford
I prefer the latter. Catch you on the flipside, space cowgirl.
xoxo Simonski
p.s, it's Bop-Ding! I win!"
My heart is bursting with love.
Ahh the power of film.
Consider the film "He's just not that into you" as an ode to dumb females everywhere.
Girls will all tell each other "no, no, he's soooooo down for you, just wait" and then they'll wait, and wait, and nothing'll ever happen. We all think we're being helpful, but really, we're only getting each others hopes up.
What I guess I'm trying to say is that girls, as helpful as they may be sometimes, are absolutely clueless. We have no idea what boys are thinking, or why they do (or don't do) what they do. We just have to deal. Boys will flake and fuck up as much as they like, and really, as a female, the only thing any of us can do is read into it and hope that we're not being totally stupid.
Really, we're all screwed.
Big Brother 11: the rise and fall of Ronnie.
Okay, so you don't even know how hyped I was last night when I realized Big Brother was on. OMG. And it was eviction day, and two of my favorites, Jordan and Laura were up on the block. So sad.
Laura
Jordan
I absolutely detest this man. He truly was the rat of the house. He played both sides to such an extreme that they all ended up thinking that everyone hated them, which he sat comfortably in the middle, looking like a saint. Now that he's been exposed, the entire house hates him. The other houseguests were so brutal to him, he had to hide in the HOH bedroom for two days before he had to go into the diary room. After being such a scumbag, there's no doubt in my mind that he'll be going home next week, now that Jesse's won HOH again.
Laura ended up going home, but at least she took Ronnie down with her!
Ahh this show is too good.
But wanna see how they fucked more shit up? http://bigbrothernetwork.com/ Creepiest website of all time. Granted, I check it about 5 times a day to get more in the moment updates on the house (shut up shut up shut up), but they also have a new feature, the "Big Brother: Live Feeds" which are uncensored 24/7 feeds, which you pay $39.99 for 3 months, or $14.99 per month. SO CREEPY. You can see everyone doing everything. Not okayyyy.
I love this show, but my god, not that much. (but if someone bought it for me, I mean......)
LauraOkay, so she's easily one of the toughest competitors in the house, and thats the reason she got put up on the block so quickly. She's smart, which was totally unexpected because of the way she looks. (who are we kidding, big tits = no brain, most of the time.) She's not quite as popular as Jordan, but she made a lot of the friends in the house, even though she was one of the biggest threats.
JordanAw man, don't even get me started. I LOVE Jordan, I'm not gonna lie. She's always served as the comedic relief on the show, saying things like "wait...there are 43 minutes in an hour, right?" and just generally being a dumb blonde. She's super tight with almost everyone, because they know she isn't a schemer. She's a kindhearted person, but could easily win the game because she's so innocent.
Obviously Jordan was put up on the block by Ronnie, the HOH, as a pawn to get Laura out of the house. This caused Laura and Jordan, who are both on the Popular team, to turn against each other and try to sway the other houseguests into keeping them in. Laura did a better job of that, because she knew there was a greater chance of her going home.
In the end, Laura ended up exposing Ronnie as the rat when she tried to get his vote before the nomination ceremonies.
I absolutely detest this man. He truly was the rat of the house. He played both sides to such an extreme that they all ended up thinking that everyone hated them, which he sat comfortably in the middle, looking like a saint. Now that he's been exposed, the entire house hates him. The other houseguests were so brutal to him, he had to hide in the HOH bedroom for two days before he had to go into the diary room. After being such a scumbag, there's no doubt in my mind that he'll be going home next week, now that Jesse's won HOH again.
Laura ended up going home, but at least she took Ronnie down with her!
Ahh this show is too good.
But wanna see how they fucked more shit up? http://bigbrothernetwork.com/ Creepiest website of all time. Granted, I check it about 5 times a day to get more in the moment updates on the house (shut up shut up shut up), but they also have a new feature, the "Big Brother: Live Feeds" which are uncensored 24/7 feeds, which you pay $39.99 for 3 months, or $14.99 per month. SO CREEPY. You can see everyone doing everything. Not okayyyy.
I love this show, but my god, not that much. (but if someone bought it for me, I mean......)
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
hey hey i'm happy
I'm having a really good couple of days - I've gotten shit dooooone!
I've decided not to take the job as a knife salesperson, and instead to be a broke-ass and go to J Levs cabin and be drunk and high for a week straight. Oh, and suntan. That just sounds way nicer to me than going into strangers houses and attempting to sell then 300$ knives during a recession, thanks.
And some lovely things happened recently, but I won't be going into that publicly. I'm stoked!
Here's some music I'm pretty down for right now!
"Batdance" - by Prince
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VLlQpc8D2Kc
"Pussy Money Weed" - Lil Wayne
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SPKjD_9Osgo
don't judge me. I love him.
"Hypnotize" - Notorious BIG
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PkBpRBrSVos
"You'll find a way" - Santigold
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95Tjhy24DeU
stuck in my head all the time now.
I've turned into a little g, apparently.
I've decided not to take the job as a knife salesperson, and instead to be a broke-ass and go to J Levs cabin and be drunk and high for a week straight. Oh, and suntan. That just sounds way nicer to me than going into strangers houses and attempting to sell then 300$ knives during a recession, thanks.
And some lovely things happened recently, but I won't be going into that publicly. I'm stoked!
Here's some music I'm pretty down for right now!
"Batdance" - by Prince
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VLlQpc8D2Kc
"Pussy Money Weed" - Lil Wayne
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SPKjD_9Osgo
don't judge me. I love him.
"Hypnotize" - Notorious BIG
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PkBpRBrSVos
"You'll find a way" - Santigold
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95Tjhy24DeU
stuck in my head all the time now.
I've turned into a little g, apparently.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
here is my love(?) life.
7:13pmClaire
ahahaha
cause he was like "i wish i was stoned. i'd be do down for watching disney movies and cuddling" LOL
7:14pmMarija
dude you need to playy harder to get than that
youre making it too easy for him
7:14pmClaire
ahhaha dude i've been playing hard to get for a month, i just didn't know it.
and thats all we did yesterday. it was hella cute, he came over at like, 11 and we made breakfast and watched disney movies, then began cuddling, then we went out with hannah, connor, colleen, emma, rowan and amos to go play pool, and THEN me hannah and him went back to his place
7:14pmMarija
ok just fucking come over and tell about this boy from heaven over pasta
ahahaha
cause he was like "i wish i was stoned. i'd be do down for watching disney movies and cuddling" LOL
7:14pmMarija
dude you need to playy harder to get than that
youre making it too easy for him
7:14pmClaire
ahhaha dude i've been playing hard to get for a month, i just didn't know it.
and thats all we did yesterday. it was hella cute, he came over at like, 11 and we made breakfast and watched disney movies, then began cuddling, then we went out with hannah, connor, colleen, emma, rowan and amos to go play pool, and THEN me hannah and him went back to his place
7:14pmMarija
ok just fucking come over and tell about this boy from heaven over pasta
my life!
I'm silly! You're silly! He's silly! She's silly! They're silly! We're silly! Today is silly! Yesterday was silly! That thing over there is silly! Text messaging is silly! Disney movies are silly! My dog is silly! Everything is silly!
this video is silly! (watch it, actually. Drake - Houstatlantavegas)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y7CTlBUsmHs
I'm not fucked up or anything, I'm just really, really happy. Everything is great at this moment. I mean, I might be digging myself a bit of a hole at the moment, but it's fine.
Ahhhhhhh yay!
this video is silly! (watch it, actually. Drake - Houstatlantavegas)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y7CTlBUsmHs
I'm not fucked up or anything, I'm just really, really happy. Everything is great at this moment. I mean, I might be digging myself a bit of a hole at the moment, but it's fine.
Ahhhhhhh yay!
Sunday, July 19, 2009
BIG BROTHER 11
Every summer I have to force myself not to turn into a huge hermit when Big Brother starts. But who am I kidding? Deception, hook-ups, cheating, competition, alliances, betrayal, what more do I need?!
This year though, Big Brother has added another little bonus: instead of each player competing on their own, they're working in Cliques to win the half a million dollars. The groups are as follows: Popular, Brains, Off-Beats, and Athletes. So far, my money's on the Athletes to take it all, but we're only about 6 episodes in, so whoooo knows.
The houseguests are: (from left ro right)Braden, Casey, Chima, Jeff, Jordan, Kevin
Laura, Lydia, Michelle, Natalie, Ronnie and Russell.
BUT THEN: as another twist, they decided to add in a 13th houseguest, just for shits and giggles.
I present to you, ladies and gents, Jesse!
This year though, Big Brother has added another little bonus: instead of each player competing on their own, they're working in Cliques to win the half a million dollars. The groups are as follows: Popular, Brains, Off-Beats, and Athletes. So far, my money's on the Athletes to take it all, but we're only about 6 episodes in, so whoooo knows.
The houseguests are: (from left ro right)Braden, Casey, Chima, Jeff, Jordan, Kevin
Laura, Lydia, Michelle, Natalie, Ronnie and Russell.
BUT THEN: as another twist, they decided to add in a 13th houseguest, just for shits and giggles.
I present to you, ladies and gents, Jesse!
dear lord!
I didn't know people were allowed to be that muscly! To mess things up even more, he was on season 10 of the show, but was evicted in the first episode. OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT.
So far, Braden one of the Popular's has already been evicted, and good fucking riddance! The guy was too greasy for his own good. But other than that, I'm actually secretly rooting for the Popular team. Jordan's just so cute and stupid with her southern accent, and Laura's tits are just a sight to behold. But at this point, wanting the Popular's to win is like wanting the Green Party to win an election...It'd be fun and cool and all, but what would they really do for you? Neither of the two girls are really putting up much of a fight...
Anyway, just thought I'd nerd out for a second there! Watch watch watch away! I'll be sure to let everyone know what happens next Tuesday night at 8!
i'll be there for you?
Lately, I've felt really abandonned by a lot of the people I care about. Some may know this, others may not, but two days ago I had to rush myself into the hospital because I had severe abdominal pains. I'm not talking like "oh, a cramp, it'll pass" kind of pains - I'm saying full blown, you cannot sit down, you have to lie in the starfish position on your living room floor while pressing a heating pad firmly to your stomach kind of pains. I was nausaeous, couldn't eat, and drowsy for about 3 hours before I took myself in. The doctors tested me for everything under the sun: thinking I was pregnant, or that I had an STI/STD, that I had hunger pains and was anorexic, but finally they decided that my appendix must be on the point of bursting. Thanks?
Ever since then, with the exception of going to see No Doubt, I've been at home, sitting on the couch with a warming bean bag on my lap. It's the only way I can be without wanting to kill myself. Granted, the pain isn't as bad as it was before - meaning I don't feel like I'm being continuously stabbed in the gut, but the pain does get to that point sometimes.
Since I've been like this, 2 people have come to see me/made any real effort to contact me. Lily was over for a bit, and Marija came over before and after the show, but really, thats it. Some other people have asked me if I wanted to hang out, but when I told them I couldn't really go anywhere or do anything, I was considered a lost cause and forgotten about. I get that everyones doing the Folk Fest right now, but it's nice to have even the slightest bit of recognition when something shitty happens. A phone call, maybe? at least.
I'm bored everyday now to the point of tears. My own brother left me to go hang out with other people, not even half an hour after I was discharged from the ER. There are only so many movies, hours spent on facebook, and updates in my various blogs that I can handle before I start to go crazy. Normally at that point, I would remove myself from my house and find something to do. but i can't. I'm stuck.
This sentiment leads to something else I've felt for a very long time. Two years at least, I think. It's really hard for me to say, but I think it's somewhat necessary. When I was in grade 10, my brother came down with some kind of unknown sickness. He missed 4+ months of school, and the doctors never found out what was wrong with him. He went partially blind, and couldn't walk, read, or write. At that time, my Mum was really sick too, because she'd just had another surgery, and I had to take care of her. I spent nearly everyday at home doing whatever I could for the family, and eventually, I began to resent my health.
If I was sick too, we could all be miserable together, and I'd have some kind of closeness with someone else, instead of being the outsider that I was. Ever since then, I've wanted to come down with some kind of sickness, just so that I could get the attention that I feel I deserve. It's not really ever been a conscious thought, but just something that I would occasionally wonder about.
"If the doctors didn't know what was wrong with me, or I had to have surgery, what kind of reaction would the people around me have?"
Turns out, there wouldn't be a reaction. People would just forget, and not care, because its summer and there are better things going on.
I'm absolutely crushed.
I know that deep down, I appreciate being healthy, and not having any permanent problems - but being in a bad state does draw attention to you, and show you who really does care. Right now, I've got two people. It's a shocking realization I hoped I wouldn't come to so quickly after graduating, but I guess I have.
I don't know how I feel.
Ever since then, with the exception of going to see No Doubt, I've been at home, sitting on the couch with a warming bean bag on my lap. It's the only way I can be without wanting to kill myself. Granted, the pain isn't as bad as it was before - meaning I don't feel like I'm being continuously stabbed in the gut, but the pain does get to that point sometimes.
Since I've been like this, 2 people have come to see me/made any real effort to contact me. Lily was over for a bit, and Marija came over before and after the show, but really, thats it. Some other people have asked me if I wanted to hang out, but when I told them I couldn't really go anywhere or do anything, I was considered a lost cause and forgotten about. I get that everyones doing the Folk Fest right now, but it's nice to have even the slightest bit of recognition when something shitty happens. A phone call, maybe? at least.
I'm bored everyday now to the point of tears. My own brother left me to go hang out with other people, not even half an hour after I was discharged from the ER. There are only so many movies, hours spent on facebook, and updates in my various blogs that I can handle before I start to go crazy. Normally at that point, I would remove myself from my house and find something to do. but i can't. I'm stuck.
This sentiment leads to something else I've felt for a very long time. Two years at least, I think. It's really hard for me to say, but I think it's somewhat necessary. When I was in grade 10, my brother came down with some kind of unknown sickness. He missed 4+ months of school, and the doctors never found out what was wrong with him. He went partially blind, and couldn't walk, read, or write. At that time, my Mum was really sick too, because she'd just had another surgery, and I had to take care of her. I spent nearly everyday at home doing whatever I could for the family, and eventually, I began to resent my health.
If I was sick too, we could all be miserable together, and I'd have some kind of closeness with someone else, instead of being the outsider that I was. Ever since then, I've wanted to come down with some kind of sickness, just so that I could get the attention that I feel I deserve. It's not really ever been a conscious thought, but just something that I would occasionally wonder about.
"If the doctors didn't know what was wrong with me, or I had to have surgery, what kind of reaction would the people around me have?"
Turns out, there wouldn't be a reaction. People would just forget, and not care, because its summer and there are better things going on.
I'm absolutely crushed.
I know that deep down, I appreciate being healthy, and not having any permanent problems - but being in a bad state does draw attention to you, and show you who really does care. Right now, I've got two people. It's a shocking realization I hoped I wouldn't come to so quickly after graduating, but I guess I have.
I don't know how I feel.
my mind has been BLOWN!
Yesterday, I accomplished one of my childhood goals: SEEING NO DOUBT LIVE IN CONCERT. And boy oh boy, I was not disappointed. Bedouin Soundclash opened, and they were really cute and got everyone really happy. I've been listening them for a while, because of all those silly Zellers commercials and whatnot, but also because they were one of Beau's favorite bands. The lead singer is also totally adorable!
What a good looking band, hey?!
Then Paramore came on. I'm not gonna lie, I'd never listened to a full song by them. I'd heard little snippets and stuff, but nothing that I really ever paid attention to. But I was pleasantly surprised by them. They kind of reminded me of a band I would've loved when I was in grade 7 - with a fake punk vibe and still really catchy happy-but-dark lyrics. However, I really enjoyed them. They sounded almost like someone that No Doubt would actually listen to, which made them all the more appropriate as their opening band.
Also, the lead singer totally reminded me of a red-headed version of one of my brothers friends. Ahaha.
See fer yerselves! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEGYgcRFKmc
But then, la pièce de la resistance!
!!!!!!
You don't even know how hyped I was. I'd been waiting for that moment since I first heard the band, when I was in Nova Scotia with my older cousin, at the age of 8 years old. I fell in love immediately.Gwen Stefani had such amazing stage presence, and her voice was beautiful. Her costumes were all sparkly and glittery, and HER COMBAT BOOTS WERE SO COOL. I still wish I could pull off combat boots, but I've tried, and it just doesn't work.They played all the songs I could've ever wanted. I even got to make a very spiteful phone call during "Ex-Girlfriend" haha. But when "Bathwater" came on, I nearly cried and danced up a storm and died all at once. "Simple Kind of Life" actually did make me cry, though.During their encore, which took a hella long time before they got back on, Paramore and Bedouin Soundclash came back on, and it was amazinggggg! I have no idea what song it was that they sang - like if it belonged to either of the other two bands, or if it was new, or a cover or something, but it was super good. All of their voices worked really well together.
Overall, it was sooo amazing, and even though we had kind of shitty seats in the balcony, it was an amazing experience.
What a good looking band, hey?!Then Paramore came on. I'm not gonna lie, I'd never listened to a full song by them. I'd heard little snippets and stuff, but nothing that I really ever paid attention to. But I was pleasantly surprised by them. They kind of reminded me of a band I would've loved when I was in grade 7 - with a fake punk vibe and still really catchy happy-but-dark lyrics. However, I really enjoyed them. They sounded almost like someone that No Doubt would actually listen to, which made them all the more appropriate as their opening band.
Also, the lead singer totally reminded me of a red-headed version of one of my brothers friends. Ahaha.See fer yerselves! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEGYgcRFKmc
But then, la pièce de la resistance!
!!!!!!You don't even know how hyped I was. I'd been waiting for that moment since I first heard the band, when I was in Nova Scotia with my older cousin, at the age of 8 years old. I fell in love immediately.Gwen Stefani had such amazing stage presence, and her voice was beautiful. Her costumes were all sparkly and glittery, and HER COMBAT BOOTS WERE SO COOL. I still wish I could pull off combat boots, but I've tried, and it just doesn't work.They played all the songs I could've ever wanted. I even got to make a very spiteful phone call during "Ex-Girlfriend" haha. But when "Bathwater" came on, I nearly cried and danced up a storm and died all at once. "Simple Kind of Life" actually did make me cry, though.During their encore, which took a hella long time before they got back on, Paramore and Bedouin Soundclash came back on, and it was amazinggggg! I have no idea what song it was that they sang - like if it belonged to either of the other two bands, or if it was new, or a cover or something, but it was super good. All of their voices worked really well together.
Overall, it was sooo amazing, and even though we had kind of shitty seats in the balcony, it was an amazing experience.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
i need to rave about this one!
See, because I've been so stupidly sick in the appendix region lately, (as in over the past day) I've been watching a lot of movies. I'd heard a lot about this one, and figured I'd give it a try, seeing as everyone I know seems to be in love with it. 106 minutes later, I understood why.
Powder Blue had a surpringly strong cast, including Forrest Whitaker, Jessica Biel, Eddie Redmayne (who's really cute!), Lisa Kudrow and my one true love (well, okay, not one, because I love many middle aged men) Patrick Swayze.
MMM AHHH so buff and so nice!
The soundtrack was amazing too, and everything flowed really well.
I guess I'm not the only one, but I like stories that are really fucked up. I like writing them. I like reading them. And I like watching them. The underlying love story in this movie was just enough to bring me out of the bitter state that I've been in for the past week, but so much fucked up shit happensthat it kind of balanced me out. What I guess I'm trying to say, is that I like movies involving strippers, guns, suicide/murder and drugs, and this movie has all of the above!
The only thing I didn't quite get about the movie was the title. It didn't really have any relevance to the story, that I saw, at least. But I mean, I guess there's quite a few things that have gone right over my head lately.
You can watch the trailer here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-UySJ-IbXks
So watch away, my lovelies! And let me know what you think!
If none of that tickles your fancy, just know this: Jessica Biel defs gets naked. oooooh!
Powder Blue had a surpringly strong cast, including Forrest Whitaker, Jessica Biel, Eddie Redmayne (who's really cute!), Lisa Kudrow and my one true love (well, okay, not one, because I love many middle aged men) Patrick Swayze.
MMM AHHH so buff and so nice!The soundtrack was amazing too, and everything flowed really well.
I guess I'm not the only one, but I like stories that are really fucked up. I like writing them. I like reading them. And I like watching them. The underlying love story in this movie was just enough to bring me out of the bitter state that I've been in for the past week, but so much fucked up shit happensthat it kind of balanced me out. What I guess I'm trying to say, is that I like movies involving strippers, guns, suicide/murder and drugs, and this movie has all of the above!
The only thing I didn't quite get about the movie was the title. It didn't really have any relevance to the story, that I saw, at least. But I mean, I guess there's quite a few things that have gone right over my head lately.
You can watch the trailer here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-UySJ-IbXks
So watch away, my lovelies! And let me know what you think!
If none of that tickles your fancy, just know this: Jessica Biel defs gets naked. oooooh!
Friday, July 17, 2009
boys boys boys boys
What troublesome things they are, non?
My love life has turned to shit, but thats okay. Granted, I've gotten more jerked around in the past month than a 14 year old boys penis, but I can deal. Not to say that it doesn't make me dislike the whole male gender, because it kind of does, but I mean, they really are the lesser species. I don't mean that I like, hate them or anything, because thats not the case at all, they just all need to learn WHATS UP. And what's up is this:
- don't promise anything that you don't fully intend on doing. It may sound nice to offer (to do) something, but if you're not going to pull through in the end, no one benefits from it.
- girls like to know they're the only one: before sports, before music, put in a nice place between friends, and last but not least, the only GIRL that you have. Any thought that any of those things come before her, and you won't ever have a happy lady.
- when she says "no", whether it be to sex or anything else, accept it. No amount of booze, drugs, or persuasion should change anything. Respect is the most important thing you can offer any other person, and if you care about a girl, she should be getting that.
- the whole jealousy thing doesn't ever get anyone very far, no matter who does it. Don't make someone else jealous, and don't be jealous - it's hard to do, but it simplifies things, and you are both end up less likely to get hurt.
- EVERYONE has problems. Every single person on the planet has dirty laundry that they don't want to air out, but if you're going to be in a relationship with someone, they have a right to know whats going on in your life. Hiding the things you're ashamed of isn't reassuring to your partner, ever, and only leads to one person feeling like they're not trusted. You need find a balance in giving and taking, and do so as much as possible.
- if you're lying about something or attempting to cover something up, that generally means it's BAD and you should not be doing it. So, for the sake of everyone, don't.
- "fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me, fool me three times...." You only get so many chances. I believe that everyone deserves two, but beyond that, if you continue to fuck up, there's only so much that can be done. If messing up and ruining something the first time wasn't enough to teach someone how to do things, it's never going to be any different, no matter how many chances you give them.
Obviously there's more, but that felt like it was the most relevant for me or for the people I know in the past little while.
I'm kind of looking forward to being single. Really, I am. Not to say I would've thrown away a relationship to be on my own, because I never would do that, but when things don't work out, sometimes it's for the best - and I'm not going to try to change something that's meant to be.
It's hard putting everything you have into someone, and then having them throw it back in your face, as though it wasn't good enough. But there's no point in lingering on that - I've learnt my lesson, and thats all that matters!
My love life has turned to shit, but thats okay. Granted, I've gotten more jerked around in the past month than a 14 year old boys penis, but I can deal. Not to say that it doesn't make me dislike the whole male gender, because it kind of does, but I mean, they really are the lesser species. I don't mean that I like, hate them or anything, because thats not the case at all, they just all need to learn WHATS UP. And what's up is this:
- don't promise anything that you don't fully intend on doing. It may sound nice to offer (to do) something, but if you're not going to pull through in the end, no one benefits from it.
- girls like to know they're the only one: before sports, before music, put in a nice place between friends, and last but not least, the only GIRL that you have. Any thought that any of those things come before her, and you won't ever have a happy lady.
- when she says "no", whether it be to sex or anything else, accept it. No amount of booze, drugs, or persuasion should change anything. Respect is the most important thing you can offer any other person, and if you care about a girl, she should be getting that.
- the whole jealousy thing doesn't ever get anyone very far, no matter who does it. Don't make someone else jealous, and don't be jealous - it's hard to do, but it simplifies things, and you are both end up less likely to get hurt.
- EVERYONE has problems. Every single person on the planet has dirty laundry that they don't want to air out, but if you're going to be in a relationship with someone, they have a right to know whats going on in your life. Hiding the things you're ashamed of isn't reassuring to your partner, ever, and only leads to one person feeling like they're not trusted. You need find a balance in giving and taking, and do so as much as possible.
- if you're lying about something or attempting to cover something up, that generally means it's BAD and you should not be doing it. So, for the sake of everyone, don't.
- "fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me, fool me three times...." You only get so many chances. I believe that everyone deserves two, but beyond that, if you continue to fuck up, there's only so much that can be done. If messing up and ruining something the first time wasn't enough to teach someone how to do things, it's never going to be any different, no matter how many chances you give them.
Obviously there's more, but that felt like it was the most relevant for me or for the people I know in the past little while.
I'm kind of looking forward to being single. Really, I am. Not to say I would've thrown away a relationship to be on my own, because I never would do that, but when things don't work out, sometimes it's for the best - and I'm not going to try to change something that's meant to be.
It's hard putting everything you have into someone, and then having them throw it back in your face, as though it wasn't good enough. But there's no point in lingering on that - I've learnt my lesson, and thats all that matters!
balance?
I realized today how much I appreciate well balanced people, in weird ways. To elaborate a little bit more, I was looking around facebook, and I realized how much some peoples personalities can contradict themselves. For example, one of my friends is one of the biggest Disney kids I know, and is also a burlesque dancer - but when you look at her from the outside, she seems like a little hippie more than anything else. And the great thing about that is that there's no judgement. As odd as it would seem to put things like that together, and form one person, it flows nicely, and makes a person that gets along with more people.
Maybe people have been like this all the time, I just haven't noticed. Or what would make more sense, given my age and the people I surround myself with most of the time, that people hide these traits because they're afraid of what people might think - or haven't even discovered those sides of themselves yet.
This picture pretty much shows what I mean, and is what sparked this whole thing in the first place:
I'm not really sure where this is going, but its an interesting thought. I wonder what people think of me in that sense - am I one of those seemingly unbalanced people who really has everything figured out? (or at least semi?)
Maybe people have been like this all the time, I just haven't noticed. Or what would make more sense, given my age and the people I surround myself with most of the time, that people hide these traits because they're afraid of what people might think - or haven't even discovered those sides of themselves yet.
This picture pretty much shows what I mean, and is what sparked this whole thing in the first place:
I'm not really sure where this is going, but its an interesting thought. I wonder what people think of me in that sense - am I one of those seemingly unbalanced people who really has everything figured out? (or at least semi?)
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
half blood prince!
I don't know how many people are as in love with Harry Potter as me, but it seemed like there were quite a few who were pretty darn close at the midnight screening of Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince last night/this morning at the Rio. Granted, I didn't dress up, because I had a bit of a wardrobe malfunction, but I really was Hermione in spirit.
The movie itself though...I'm not so sure. It seemed like they were trying to make it more of a comedy than it was supposed to be - Ron wasn't the only funny one, like he was in the books. Instead, Dumbledore had some of the funniest moments in the film, and most of Harry's lines are all sarcastic and directed towards the headmaster, which would NEVER have happened in any of the other books or movies.
One of the biggest issues in the movie, for the characters, is love, or their lack thereof. In one scene, Hermione bursts into tears when Ron and Lavender are making out, and Harry has to go and comfort her. THAT NEVER HAPPENED. I understand the need for a bit more drama in a movie, because it keeps people interested, but it doesn't work the same way when the whole story is from a best selling book.
Hihihi! This is new!
Finally, i'm blogging on a site that is no longer liverjournal - what a relief! Somehow, and I really am unsure how, livejournal seems to bring a lot of drama. Maybe it's the people who read it/used to read it, or all the communities and stuff, but it's gotten booooring.
however, check me out anyway! (even though most of them are friended, anyway)http://clairee-bearee.livejournal.com/
And I mean, who are we kidding, i'll still be using that silly service, just not as much.
I'm happy about this!
however, check me out anyway! (even though most of them are friended, anyway)http://clairee-bearee.livejournal.com/
And I mean, who are we kidding, i'll still be using that silly service, just not as much.
I'm happy about this!
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